violetskiesabove

im hugging Poofie tight now.

2009-08-06T20:25:00.001+08:00

just watched 10 promises to my dog jap movie on mysoju.com cos i was bored.
was supposed to go watch movie w erica but she wasn't feeling well.
take care girl! :D
then i went to CLEO office to get the lucky draw prize and then backtracked to JE station to IMM.
wanted to get into daiso quite badly all of a sudden.
had alimited budget too, so the shopping trip was quite worthwhile.
got a makeup brush, a nail polish, some stuff for everyone in TB30, etc etc.
passed by a christian store so i bought mummy's bday card and present for a real good deal! :D
am so proud of myself cos the present was really meaningful, or at least it'll be better than last year's. :D
i can't wait for my cousin's wedding this saturday cos i'll finally be able to catch up w my cousins and hopefully take some pretty photos with the beautiful bride.
of cos, photos will be posted if damn blogger doesn't screw up LIKE NOW.
it's totally getting on my nerves.
i can't read CSS codes, i can only do simple HTML, so im still finding out more about wordpress.
im so not IT savy.
maybe it doesn't run in the family.
haha.

anyway coming back to the movie i watched online,
OMG IT WAS SO SO SO good.
i was watching it at home with poofie beside me and when Socks ( the golden retriever in the movie) was showing signs of dying soon but still tried so hard to make her owner happy, i just grabbed Poofie and started sobbing.
so sad can.
it's really different when you've a dog around you everyday ; you can totally imagine him long and gone and that sick feeling sucks.
i hate losing things, esp when i've already lost so much already.
but im really grateful that i can still living a fortunate life now.
i highly rec 10 promises to my dog cos it just has so much meaning to it.
a really cool movie.

i promise to be nicer to Poofie from now on cos im just reminded that he's got an average lifespan of about 12- 15 years.
and who knows what will happen in between.
anyone knows how to tell if a dog can expect longevity?
HAHA.

i just found out that there's such a thing as " small dog syndrome",
char.

im truly thankful for many, many things.

2009-08-05T19:27:00.003+08:00

today's been a long day.
was staring into space while sitting in bus61 when i thought of posting a thank you list to God for all his blessings to me.
im sure i'll be a load more fortunate and happy by then.

charissa is thankful for:

1.mummy, grandma, charinne and my maternal relatives
2.an annoying but tolerable sister who's willing to do crazy stuff with me like thinking of getting an identical tattoo together on my 18th birthday. ( pls don't scream people)
3. a maid who's always there to clear up cooking disasters every saturday
4.mummy who's great at baking and is willing to impart her skills to me
5. grandma who always give my $$ when i scream my lungs out that im broke
6. Poofie my toy poodle who's always tolerating me at 2am when i cuddle him to sleep/study/ while watching youtube
7.alicia, dorothy, cass chee, gets, all st nicks friends who've made my life in st nicks such a colourful one that i'll never forget
8. all my NP friends, esp erica who's always been helping me out in studies and accompanying me around school
9.all wonderful project mates who've made tiresome projects really fruitful at the end of the day :)
10. lookbook.nu to satisfy my collection of fashion photos
11. my art and sculpture teachers for inspiring me to continue to do what i love because an artist is one with an everlasting passion for what he loves.
12. ebay.sg cos i love online shopping too much
13. all electronic gadgets i own so that i won't live like a cave woman
14. all things pink because it really make me happy because it reminds me of the time when i used to be treated like a princess
15. for a healthy body and mind to function well each day
16. the fact that i have not gained weight ( i can't imagine if i did, i'll go on a hunger strike. :/ )
17. mummy accepting the fcat that her daughter desires to do something unconventional in her life ( maybe not just in one matter, but many )
18. charinne doesn't sleep in my room cos she snores occasionally ( like now she's doing so)
19. many happy moments in NP despite some really sad ones but the blessings override the unhappiness.
20. that i have stopped dreaming of impossible matters of the heart that will never happen in my life
21. i can still find messy(my diary) amidst my mess to rant to when im at brekaing point
22. God's Word because it gives me new hope each day
23. Plants VS Zombies cos i really love that game when im bored
24. loads of cosmetics and skincare freebies i get from mummy each month
25. my huge collection of high heels i'll never wear
26.air con in my room cos i hate perspiring at home
27. kickboxing classes cos they're really fun esp when you're mad at someone
28. the love i receive from all my friends in my life although i know i can be quite a bitch sometimes
29. all prjects are over
30. for exams in the last week of August because im going through every nitty gritty bit of it with God's wisdom, strength and grace.

yup, im really happy now.
like finally.
i know im a emo kid with problems but im gona change that real soon.
hope to find more friends at TCP soon too!
really glad that ive got Jasmine with me or i'll hang around like a loser again.

im learning how to love what i do,
char.

i like what i see on whowhatwear.com for fall's trends.

2009-08-04T22:21:00.003+08:00

OMGGG!!!!

i would die for a shoe collection like this!

was totally hyperventilating when i saw this :D

wonder where i could find such a nice top.

it's really prettaye~

just came home from TCP launch.

am feeling very blessed to be part of the whole programme cos it really seems very enriching and fun.

had a load of fun talking to jasmine too! :D

although i was really exhausted, i was glad that i attended the whole thing cos i'd have missed out on so much if i didn't.

i truly thank God for putting me there as part of the 360 year one students.

i really never thought of myself as a talent and let alone developing my talent.

all charissa is good at is doing art, shopping, loving shoes, likes bling bling and loves to hug Poofie.

not forgetting her soft spot for chocolates when she's really sad.

i tell you, sweets make wonderful treats when the world is against you :)

im really tired now so im turning in.

thanks to all those who've been of such great company to me at school and all those who've constantly left a tag on the tagboard!

i really appreciate the knowledge that i've got so many friends who care about what's happening in my messy life. :)

friends are a blessing from above,

char.

blogskins drive me nuts.

2009-08-04T00:51:00.004+08:00

i love wearing leggings now.

no idea why.

maybe it's cos they're so comfortable and easy to match?

plus, it's much easier to get them in the wash.

i slept for 4.5 hours just now cos i was really tired for once.

i shall rush POA and macro HW till about 4 plus i guess and then sleep for about 2 hours before rushing for school again.

hate tuesdays.

it sucks.

shall not bring laptop tmr.

i think i'll be yawning through the TCP opening ceremony.

i can anticipate it to be quite detailed and so my brain might switch to powersaving mode.

hahahhahah.

really glad that my neck has stopped itching significantly though it still gets in the way when im sleeping.

i love drinking soya milk and cold water now.

even if it's at 2am.

hmm, wonder if that's the reason why i get tired so easily?

my eyes are painful though.

oh how i look forward to slacker thursdays.

i'll get to CLEO's office to get my prize too :D

kays, i better get going.

jiayou to everyone who's mugging their guts out and let's hope the advancement of science will be quick enough to help us elimintae dark circles and puffy eyebags before we hit 25!~

im clueless about macro now,

char.

now, im fine, :)

2009-08-03T00:28:00.003+08:00

i really like her shorts!!!~
have smth similar but i need translucent stockings :D
havta dig my wardrobe for that.

it's been a long weekend for me and im not the least proud about the piling homework and revision.
i very much rotted at home and chose to paint my nails and toes over doing macroecons or POA homework.
argh.

oh, almost forgot,
thanks to all those who've shown so much concern over that PMS post :D
haha, im feeling much better now.
ive won the one-day cold war wth mum, though what broke the silence was my whining for sushi in the afternoon.
ive got weird food cravings when i feel lousy.
bad bad.
anyway, i guess it's all aprt and parcel of growing up and truly accepting who you are and whatever you have.

it's a horrible feeling to feel hungry while blogging.
hmm, im looking forward to breakfast already.

oh, i have to annouce my detest for all species of prawns.
I HATE THEM.
one prawn caused my neck to be swollen like a pig's but thankfully, the hives have subsided over a day or so, but it's awfully itchy.
apparently only 1 out of 70 ppl get it so i guess i should buy 4D or try my luck at the casino some day.
i also found out that my body can't digest protein well and in cases like nuts and seafood, the protein CANNOT BE DIGESTED AT ALL.
it's a mutation in genes. *smacks head*
in case you don't know what hives is, it's much worse off than rashes cos it's all over the skin.
arggh, and to think ive got a wedding ceremony to attend on saturday.
wrinkly neck is all i can think of.

i need to drink soya bean milk before i sleep,

char.

i am giving up this time.

2009-08-01T19:18:00.002+08:00

im fucking angry now.
so sick of being your 100% perfect daughter that i wished i could die this very moment to make you regret.
i never wanted this wretched life of mine,
and never had a hand in deciding which fool you had married.
you were blind, the wrong was yours to bear,
and NOT MINE.
as if things were not bad enough,
you'd to go ahead and piss me off with a million questions about Charinne and it was never about me.
you gave me weird looks when i told you my dreams and aspirations.
were they that insignificant to you?
in the past i had to prove my intelligence and capabilities to that bunch of freaks from his side,
and now i have to do the same again to the very source of my existence.
what a joke, i cry.
go pick up the pieces cos i reall won't bother anymore.
i am tired i really am.
i shut the windows and doors shut to wallow in my private loneliness so that you'll never have to worry.
but it seems that my efforts were too good that they became part of my show.
you wonder why i have built so many defences against men,
isn't that because of you?
i hate the whole idea of marriage because looking at both my face and you it disgusts me greatly.
how great is life, please tell me.
im drained from the excessive emotional tension at home.
what is home to me?
i try so hard to find a meaning.
to feel a little love to see a little appreciation.
where has my world gone to?
_______________________

i want to watch barney shows again,
play in my princess room at noon.
and probably stare into the stary skies late and night and dream about my prince charming.

now im 17,
and i hate my life.
how could this be?
i don't know,
maybe when you are me,
you'll be giving up this time too.

i want to cry but my eyes ain't responding.

keep the passion burning.

2009-08-01T01:34:00.003+08:00

how do you keep that light in you going when the odds are all around you?

insomia crept in at midnight.
i knew i'd so many thoughts to sort out.

i wondered if i could've more ordinary aspirations;
would that reduce the emotional burdens?

you question,
i doubt.
you reject,
i ponder.

i am excited about the near future, i really am.
at the same time, too many "buts" appear in my train of thoughts.

have you ever yearned for something so badly?
have you ever wanted to prove yourself wrong?
has your doubts ever held you back and made you stumble?
have you ever been so alone, that sometimes, you wished you'd a simpler brain to start with?

it's the inward tension and outward struggle i face everyday.
i should be asking for wisdom from above, that i know.
i will be walking by faith and not by sight,
and rejoice that i am accomplishing the will of my Father.

painful is the journey for now,
but i know that my treasures await me later.

it's Your promise that leads me on,
it's the strength and grace,
that grants me a new hope for tomorrow.

let my passion never die out,
and in all uncertain matters,
i once again can only,
but only commit to You,
in prayer and in praise.

______________________________________________

He watches you like an owl out at midnight.

CLEO SENT ME SOMETHING!!!

2009-07-31T20:59:00.003+08:00

OMGG!!!

i won benefit's badgal waterproof liner from CLEOOOOOO!!!!

freaking happy cos when i saw it at the counter, i'd to put it back cos it's 41bucks for a pencil.

i really needed it cos im running out of waterproof black liners.

take pity on my poor small eyes.

not to mention monolids too.

argh, they drive me crazy at the sight of it.

anyways, im really into outerwear now!

ive got my faux leather jacket mailed by kanadata and it's DAM NICE!!!!

it's fits just nice, really JUST nice for me.

my sister has thoughts of grabbing it for her own use already.

but i told her that the disappearance of my clothes would mean the same for her dear Poofie too.

HAHA.

i need a light denim coloured bf shirt too. it's lacking in my collection of clothes. :(

nvm, shall buy from zara cos i really love it.

so glad that PBL2's over.

HURRRAAYYYY.

ouch, i tried to eat chili with my chicken rice and IT SUCKS.

i hate CHILI.

argh.

so much for trying to be singaporean.

my tongue stinks cos i hate chili,

char.

the lyrics played on and on.

2009-07-30T00:39:00.002+08:00

Careless, I am reckless
I'm a wrong-way-travelin'-slowly-unraveling shell of a man
Burnt out, I'm so numb now
That the fire's just an ember way down in the corner of my cold, cold heart

Lord, this time I'll make it right, here at the altar I lay my life
Your kingdom come but my will was done, my heart is broken as I...

Cry, like so many times before
But my eyes are dry before I leave the floor, oh Lord
I try but this time, Jesus, how can I be sure I will not lose my follow through
Between the altar and the door

Here at the altar, oh my world so black and white
How could I ever falter
What You've shown me to be right
_________________________________________________________

yes, all i need is You.
it's just so difficult to do because the flesh is weak.

defying my recollections.

2009-07-30T00:05:00.004+08:00

~~"oh, do you think barbie doll's pretty?~~
yeah, i believe so.
isit cos she's got long hair?
well, you'll be as pretty as her when yours grows to that length too.
really?
~~i beamed, believing that i was indeed living in bliss, while staring at the mirror."~~

~~someone onced asked me why i love cutting my hair.~~
truth be told,
it's because i always had mine long in plaids when i was young.
her crowning glory was her pride because his camera shoots made her day ever so wonderful.
maybe its the satisfaction of going against every thought of you that brings me some form of sadistic escape from those recollections.
i truly don't want to touch photography anymore.
it hurts.
i have a split personality.
i left who i used to be behind when we parted at the airport.
im turning on deaf ears to whatever shit you wished me.
im just like you, every DNA that runs the motor of my body, and i somewhat detest it.
it disgusts me many times.
but i can't help denying my gifts,
which were so unfortunately forsaken for a long time,
because looking at my works,
just reminds me of every detail of that horrid time down under.

~~i am still suffering from insomia, strangely.~~
im having a damn headache now.
i know i need rest.
im trying really hard.
~~my joints are aching already; i feel a fever coming.~~

~~i wonder why meimei's so carefree everyday.~~
i want to be like her too.
why should i be the one who's trying fking hard to live on with all that i don't even deserve?
would i have been different?
she gets her way all the time.
mum allows her but not me.
she criticises me and just nags at meimei since she knows she can always depend on me.
don't they know that im trying to deny myself with stress?
it's so pointless talking to anyone except for God.

~~yes im PMSing now so don't read this if possible.~~
it's my worst post ever.
i've had enough and i don't where where the hell im heading to.
i know at the back of my mind to do the things i should do, like counting my blessings, not being emo whatever.
but has anyone of you been through what i have been through?
i will not ask for a shorter lifepsan cos i know God will do the opposite instead.
~~He's never finished with me.~~

~~I keep giving and trying to make everyone happy.~~
but when's MY fking turn?!
i want to cry but it's surprising that no tears fall already.
~~im starting to scare myself at this point.~~

emptiness.
i need to be made whole again,
with the love of Christ.

im trying deperately to sleep with a zillion thoughts i want to shut out and erase.

exhausting week and excessive yawning.

2009-07-28T20:03:00.000+08:00

all projects are done cept for PBL2, which sucks cos it's DSS.
ive no clue what to do for that module and i seriously rather take any other module than this.
i don't mind extra POA or econs, i just hate DSS that much.

i have yet to revise b.law for tmr, nor have i done b.law homework.
we've to chiong for tmr's PBL2 cos if not we'll suffer hell in the afternoon.

as usual, i can't help but say that life sucks.
im trying to relax but it's getting on my nerves already.

argh.

i shall sleep for an hour and chiong for the rest of the night/morning.

i can't wait for friday.
i need to breathe.

everyone seems very busy though.
but im glad at at least one person tags each month :)
on a brighter note, i should be glad that people even know ive a blog.
haha.
it sucks to keep talking to yourself.
i might as well talk to Poofie.

im pissed w blogger cos i cant upload photos now.
dammit.

i like daiso's glitter polish,
char.

turn a round about.

2009-07-27T19:56:00.006+08:00

lookbook.nu rocks.

thanks to dawn who passed me the site url! XD

love it to BITS.

it helped me loads for bmgt project :)

was suffering from severe insomia yestd.

turned in at 2.30am after a long day of work but could only drift off at 3.30am.

wonderful.

my eyes hurt like hell while stuffing my contacts on.

argh.

i know i look horrible in specs, so over my dead body would i ever wear it for presentation.

shall study a little on fixed assets later for POA and wake up at 12midnight to study all the way till abt 4 plus or 5?

i know im torturing my body but i realy don't mind a shorter lifespan if all these meant that i could score better grades.

im a slacker in the day and i chiong like mad at night.

adrenaline rush?

certainly.

was listening to just one track for 12 times yestd while doing up the slides.

does anyone feel special towards certain songs at some point int the night?

i've got a million whys to ask and a zillion thoughts to ponder upon.

but the weird thing is, i simply can't put them into words when facing Messy.

i shut it close and that's it.

it was a long night yestd, it really was.

it just stumbled upon me that the other side of the field ain't always greener.

perhaps learning to take one step at a time could help me a great deal.

it's 5 more weeks of madness and then im off to dreamland for the month of september.

i need rest already.

i've been popping pills like nobody's business to keep my immune system up these days.

sigh.

and chinese tea's been my buddy for those long nights that it's down to 3/30 packs only. :(

time to restock at NTUC.

hhahahahh!

kays, i think my eyes hurt already,

char.

poofie&strawberries.

2009-07-26T19:00:00.000+08:00

just done with doing up choco coated strawberries for geraldine :D
out of which only abt 7 were okay.
the rest looked like halloween treats.
HAHA.

poofie just gave me a fright when he started puking bile behind me.
i'd to dip my fingers into cold wet chicken meat mix to feed the dizzy dog which couldn't even balance himself properly.
argh.
thank goodness i didnt paint my nails.

im rushing thru bmgt ppt now, later doing up lms assignment then lastly surfing youtube for inspiration for tmr's pbl2 discussion.
i know NOTHING abt pivot table.
really.
i truly thank the creator of youtube from the bottom of my heart.

managed to get a pink samsung star HP over the weekend.
freaking happy that it matches my pink NEC laptop perfectly~
now ive got a pink room, pink phone, pink digi camera, pink laptop, pink nail polish, pink converse shoes, pink lap top sleeve, pink socks and er, maybe a pink poofie???
haha, just kidding.
i don't know why i like pink this way either.
it's just very pretty that's all.
just like how some cool people adore black from head to toe.
i like black too, but eh, it's getting too too common. :(

hmm, i really look forward to hanging out with my alicia, dots, fran, gets and many many many more if given the time and opportunity.
i feel like im missing out so much, at the same time,
i wonder if we'll ever run out of things to relate to or bitch about?
it's just this weird nagging gut feeling that i have towards uber good friends who i dun see very often.
and to add on, i wonder if i've changed too, be it for the better or for worse.
does anyone think about these random things when you're taking bus or mrt?
i always do and it keeps me from dozing off like a pig when i should after only getting 3 hours of sleep.

okay, i've got a tonne to write for lms assignment.
i really do.

i havent danced in the rain with my besties for a long, long time,
char.

purity.

2009-07-23T17:52:00.003+08:00

i like white,grey and black now.

even my colour palette's running out of liner colours for those outfits already!

thank goodness my 78 palette arrived just in time.

really happy about it.

am currently rushing through BMGT project and im really tired.

i shall sleep for an hour then chiong to compile everything ready for binding at block 73.

this week's been, well, somewhat not too good for me.

just recalled something that MJ mentioned, about kids being so innocent and pure, unlike the hypocritc and selfish adults out there.

it was certainly food for thought.

i mean, even taking the MRT enables you to see the ugly side of human nature and let alone mingling around this topsy turvy society.

does everyone question themselves about their friends and "friends" around them?

not that i don't have true buddies who're always for me, it's just that they can't always be with me and it's SCARY to wander about NP somewhat alone, esp if i suay suay dun get into the same class as my friends now in the next sem.

i want a new handphone and my black jacket to arrive soon.

i like TALON NECKLACE on thestylishwanderer's blog.

the authentic one's on seaofshoes.

i love that claw pendant so much that im willing to exchange 6 pairs of heels for it.

really.

but in SGD, it's abt 100+ for the talon necklace.

why do eye candies always hurt?

in every case, be it humans or things, it's all the same.

regarding my 25 questions,

i shall just keep it a secret between messy(my diary's name) and me myself.

it's fun to keep a little happiness to yourself. :)

the pandas are calling me after 3 days of lack of sleep,

char.

2009-07-22T18:42:00.002+08:00

yes, blogger's screwed up again and im pissed.
just when i needed a place to scream it has to die on me.

i shall revert to my good old diary for the 25 questions i had on my way home.

and perhaps a couple of rantings & a bunch of song tracks.

im seriously considering switching to wordpress.

blogger sucks.

laughter past midnight.

2009-07-20T00:10:00.002+08:00

isn't he adorable??
i laughed so hard when i saw this!
his crocs shoes are so TINY!!
he reminds me of the very very young and chubby (DUH) version of james bond.
HAHAHA.

was really touched by the songs sang at speedlight today.

All for love a Father gave
For only love could make a way
All for love the heavens cried
For love was crucified

Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You

Let me sing all for love
I will join the angel song
Ever holy is the Lord
King of Glory
King of all

Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You (x2)

All for a love a Saviour prayed
Abba Father have Your way
Though they know not what they do
Let the Cross draw man to You

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You (x2)

it's been a long time since we sang this at church and the timing for it was prefect today.

i mean, this week's been CRAZY.

really.

from having fun with filming cum interviews, coping with mixed emotions, stress at school, econs test on tues, projects due, etc etc.

phew, life just seems so overwhelming for me.

couldn't have made it without God's love and grace.

im staying up to study econs and im only done with chapter 9 of the textbook.

tutorial HW's not done yet.

and im hungry.

i know it's random, but my gastric acts up when im stressed = hungry.

but eating supper at night makes me fat so i rather die of starvation when i wake up.

grandma's really sweet lately cos she's been giving me load of nice stuff.

from food to cleaning Poofie up for me to buying little gifts which were especially effective when i was going to murder my sister soon over issues.

having sibling's a tough job.

especially when both are total opposites. it drives me mad.

can't wait for my cousin's wedding in abt 3 weeks' time!

going to hit town during the free period btwn the church wedding and the wedding dinner.

considering many options as i don't feel comfortable walking ALL AROUND ORCHARD in 4 inch high heels and a dress.

i don't usually wear them but once in a while is fun, esp when i get to drag my sis into doing the same too :)

yes, im that sort of girl who likes cosplays, camwhoring with webcams, taking neoprints all day long, eating ice cream while shopping, screaming over some han guo nan ren in dramas, photoshop-ing photos to put on blogs, and most of all i like shopping! any form of it makes me really really happy.

yeah, i do agree with Gets that if my life were a movie, it'd be Confessions of a Shoppaholic.

but hey, she ends up with a rich and talented guy rights? HAHAHA.

im crapping too much.

back to mugging!

graphs are shortening my lifespan,

char.

her crowning glory.

2009-07-18T21:08:00.003+08:00

my hairstyle was inspired by her!!! XD
of course, without the super nice blonde hair and long long extensions she has.
i have uber razor cut at the back with slanted fringe and long sides from my previous hairstyle.
took 1 hr 25 mins for Jason of Hair Inn (AMK) to do up everything.
im so going back to him next time.
he looks quite stern but who cares as long as my hair turns out that way i like it to be XD

my head's VERY light now XD

it was comtemplating between paris hilton's bob or victoria beckham's one when he suggested to cut a dramatic one since i was so keen to make my hairstyle stand out.
yes, im obsessed with bob cuts now.

just had a small dinner and now KFC.
talk to me about blood tests today and my cholestrol just hit the max of norm rates.
argh.
see, i still need to lose weight. :X

cheers,
char.

let joy surpass all the worthless memories.

2009-07-17T20:44:00.005+08:00

was so bored during LMS class that dawn and i decided to camwhore!

i didnt know my webcam was that good with all the animation and stuff.

you need more people and weird faces to make the whole shot a better one :D

i'd so much fun with dawn XD

HAHA.

the rest are up on FB :)

not glam at all but it's the laughter and fun that counts :)

so many things happened today.

really.

i don't wana mention annything cos i want to just let it go.

after all, i've been doing fine all these while :D

that little stress won't kill me.

sis and mum aren't back home yet and im rotting at home.

i havent studied macro econs and i think im gona die for the test.

there's BMGT and DSS project to do.

DSS unit application and a meaningless elearning DSS grp project to do too.

wonderful.

im gona update DN soon.

it's very comforting to know that my friends are supporting the site too :)

met mary-anne today in the tarin and she told me she was gg to US to study.

that girl's music talent's gotten her somewhere!

really felt so happy for her. :)

it's times like this that you realise that so much time has passed you by.

the thought of it is simply scary.

and in a decade's time you hear wedding bells ringing for your girlfriends and soon everyone ends up in church with a white gown.

it's a pretty nice thought but sad too.

i don't mind sitting on the shelve collecting dust for a long time but i really hate the feeling of boredom.

oh well.

im looking forward to tmr.

it's nothing much but i hope it'll be intertesting :)

im crossing my fingers,

char.

i need to have pretty memories of everything.

2009-07-16T21:30:00.002+08:00

really nice photo right?
fell in love with it at first sight :)

many pictures brought back loads of memories,
i've got a thousand emotions going on inside.
i don't know what to do about it;
i'll walk away from it,
for a better tommorrow.

sometimes i wished i was glam material,
would life be better then?
but again,
where would my integrity and compassion be?

i like observing morning glories.
it opens in the morning,
and shuts itself at twilight.
now i wonder if i am some of that sort too.

ive been counting my blessings.
too umpteen for numbers.
im truly blessed, i know,
despite the many gloomy 24hrs i've had.

my greatest appreciation and love goes to all my friends,
who've given me your utmost assurance,
in my worst day-mares of every circumstance i was in.
im truly blessed to have such fabulous friends like you,
who're undoubtly beautiful inside out.
the smile you put on my face each time,
does make me feel that the world's been made brighter a million times.

im trying to be what i have to be.
i rely on His Word for direction, purpose and strength.
and i shall rejoice,
because it's the Lord im serving.
His love is more than enough for me.

till then,
i shall wait in expectation.
being still patiently,
because i know that i will taste of His goodness
very, very soon.

with loads of love to all who've bothered to read,
char.

do you think it's worth the chance?

2009-07-16T12:55:00.005+08:00

i realised i've been spending about 2hours each day on all the fashion blogs.

i really really like the whole colour coordination, trend spotting and design demension things that's going on in the fashion industry.

i know there're probably a billion people out there who're much more talented and gifted than i am in this area.

my strong desire to head in this direction's simply strange.

it's not like any of my relatives are fashionistas or makeup gurus.

i feel really out of place.

many a times, i wonder if i could save much more of i didnt have so many wants to get this and that?

but then again, what's the phrase "long term investment" for right? ;)

haha, what a desperate attempt to appease my guilty conscience :p

i just updated DN.bs (http://www.doublenumber.blogspot.com/) today!

do take a look peeps!

really dug through the mountains of links i'd for this and i hope u all will enjoy it as much as i do!

comments and suggestions are highly appreciated! :D

do link us to show your support!!~

twenty six should be posting more on the runway styles soon :D

so do look out for her posts too! :D

contests will be held at the end of august but it's dependent on whether we've got enough followers !

shall start a mailing list soon to notify members of updates :)

it feels really good to be on MC.

who would've thought that gastric pains could be so troublesome.

argh.

thank goodness im off peptic ulcers so medical costs are much lower than expected.

phew~

really looking forward to JoJo's album All i want is everything coming out near end of the year since she's still recording.

really like her music.

can't believe ive been a fan since i was in primary 5?

yeah, but she's got a beautiful r&b voice that just grows on you :D

okay, poofie's whining cos he wants to get out of my room. :(

till then cya & take care people! :)

there's no need to rush,

char.

i wanted to believe in fairytales.

2009-07-14T22:34:00.008+08:00

jane from seaofshoes seems so carefree and happy here.

she's really photogenic.

not to mention nice legs and icy white skin which simply glows in any setting she's in.

one of my favourite fashion icons.

all from stylebubble!~

i really love the fact that she's asian and she can really pull off ANY look she wants.

a truly inspiring fashionista here.

wished i had that much guts as her to go beyond my comfort zone and pursue my dreams.

or, sad to say, long-forgotten dreams of mine.

taken from karlascloset.

marni wedges~

but they look too painful for me to even want to have it.

really pretty shoes but i guess i'll just leave it to the pleasure of my eyes.

karla's pixie cut reminds me of my sec2 haircut.

rmb how i used gatsby hair mud and wax everyday???

and i'd style Gets' hair too since both of us wanted our spiky hair to defy gravity???

hahah, i can still rmb styling her hair at the back of bus 76.

oh, i feel SO OLD NOW.

this reminds me of how i wreck my brains over the tonnes of shoes i have.

the problem is, there're nice to see BUT not nice to wear at ALL.

you'll be buddies with plasters if you intend to walk more than 5km in them.

i really love her face.

isn't she beautiful?

she exudes a sense of simplicity and purity.

i seldom see girls like her.

stunning.

she reminds me of avril.

i used to have shoes like hers but they were spoilt due to some freak accident when i was 13 and so they moved on to a new home called the incinerator. :)

i want long hair too~~

though cutting of 12inches of hair, in a form of a ponytail snipped of, resulted in 4 years of painful waiting for short hair to grow to medium length hair, i still think it was worth the madness cos having uber short hair was quite fun.

i mean people did mistake me for a les in school sometimes but who cares.

everyone has identity crisis right?

so let's play along~

it's not like im hopping mad about the fact that people were curious about my gender orientation.

just that my mum was begging me to revert back to flowy skirts, silky long black hair and BIGBIG kawaii eyes, in which i strongly believed could only exist in the charissa who was 13 and below.

i've moved on to embrace something else.

just came home not long from KB and gym and im so so so tired.

shall sleep now and wake up at 5.30am to chiong DSS lesson 18 and 20 as well as b law qn.

plus there're other project stuff to look into too.

omg, how am i gona cope with TCP next sem?

must trust that God will see me through, especially when im stressed, hungry and cold in lecture theatres or classrooms.

hate that feeling. :(

kays, im exhausted.

byebye friends and do tag ya? :)

would love to know what's going on at your end :D

loves,

char.

2 corinthians 12:9

2009-07-12T17:49:00.008+08:00

hmm, i don't think i'll ever see this is singapore.
really like the striking colour combi and all.

who would've thought of making a one-shoulder dress(not a toga) in this way?
genius shot.

credits to style bubble.
omg, i was ()*)(*(&^%%^$%^##@$ when i saw these shoes.
AREN'T THEY FREAKING FREAKING CHIC???
people would probably stare at your feet as you walk about the ground of this planet!~

credits to elenita.
YAY!
she's wearing h&m jacket here!
gona have mine soon too!!!

im in love with black now, for some reason.
cos it's simple?
haha, actually, if you were to ask any girl, they'll tell you that black is an ideal colour because it's SLIMMING and it's uber easy to match with other stuff.
hmm, what a complicated world we have uh, girls?

im going to finish one lesson of DSS today, maybe a bit of business management project here and there and hope to do smth about it and perhaps have my dinner cos my stomach's screaming hungry.~

have you ever wondered who actually really knows you?
it was just a question that popped up in my mind during a train ride home.
random, but it did make me start thinking for a while.

really glad to know that many of my sisters-in-christ are growing in the Lord!
praise God! :D
it's really rare to see people genuinely passionate for God.
im blessed to have these people around me to spur me on in my walk with Him, especially when things just seem to go all wrong.

read montgomerytoday's blog.
it had an illustration that said, " for when i am weak, then i am strong." (2corinthians 12:13)
followed by a verse from 2 corinthians 12:9, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."
i really love these two verses cos it was just what i needed not just during that point in time, but in every single step i take in life.
im trying to revive that passion for Christ amidst my daily hectic schedules, cos sometimes, you're just so tempted to give everything up since the standard of Christ's never easy to achieve by own strength.
it's like whatever that you do seems fine to the world, but in fact, you've sinned, and you know it.
it's a constant inner struggle, i guess.

im off to eat dinner now.

P.S. poofie responded to my "shake hand" command 4 times today! without treats! but he still staying far away from me after i hugged him a lil too hard just now. (cos he's very fluffy now so i couldn't tell if i was hugging fur or what) HAHA.

im on a hunt for food now,
char.

my obsession.

2009-07-11T11:37:00.010+08:00

<3 the photo composition.

alexandra wang pull-over knit dress is GORGEOUS.
but the price tag's too pretty to look at :p

fabulous shoes.
i really like the second on from the left.
saw smth like that on park&cube's bazaar web, but it's too high for me to balance :(

really love her ruby lippie.
i can't believe i've got over 7 lipsticks in total.
uber glad that i managed to swap for laneige's version of MAC's ruby woo.
gona wear that for my cousin'd wedding dinner next month.

man, how cool is that?
i really envy jan of seaofshoes cos she's got literally everything a girl wants.
you name it, she has it.
even the manniquins look gorgeous with her stuff.
now, who says being fashion-forward's all about looking hideous?

she reminds me of the little match girl.
i think she's really pretty!~
im gona persevere with my not-long-not-short hair and have the exact same hairstyle as she has.
im not too sure about my obsession over honey hazel hair.
beauteen hair colour shall satisfy my wants for now cos im not at the very least bit rich.

im in love with that top.
really.
i've searched high and low in boutiques and i still can't find it.
i may not buy it cos it's quite costly but it won't hurt to see it in real life rights?

my favourite collage at the moment.
the model on the bottom left's my fav.
i don't know why, but blue seems to go perfectly with her.
not to mention a nice angle of the photo itself.
sigh, should i have signed up for photography at school??
it's ex :(

went out with dots, fran and alicia yesterday.
tho alicia had to leave sooner than i thought, we'd so much fun catching up at orchard station while waiting for dots and fran.
when dots came over, i happily munched her honey+blueberry sandwich happily just like how cookie monster eats his cookies.
the girl was famished, and so i think i was quite unglam in the centre of orchard but i can't be bothered.
try talking sense into hungry people and they'll probably ignore you.
hahah.

then we went to many places around orchard area and finally got to wheelock place's bysi to look at the sale.
bought a grey u-neck dress at 50% off which was the last piece in the whole shop.
was hopping happy cos i've finally got smth comfortable to wear for the wedding dinner.
no way am i gona wear stupid chiffon or satin.
i learnt that from prom.
it's so difficult to walk in satin cos it's tight and everything.

really looking forward to my 78 shadow palette arriving in 10days' time and my faux leather jacket in two weeks' time.
this is the reason why im not eating much.
not spending on food does save quite a bit for shopping. :D

to dots: just sufed some fash blogs and found out that translucent black tops are making a comeback soon! haha, i'll forward yo some sites if i happen to chance upon them again :X

today's dental appointment and i've not idea what disaster will happen to my teeth or jaw.
but i know mummy's gona whine about her expensive child again.
nevertheless, thou shall remind her my countless acts of filial piety, esp when it comes to waiting for close to 2 hours for her h=outside the changing room.
hahha.

kays, i wana change blogskin now.
cheers people.

thinking of what to wear later,
char.

what love means to me.

2009-07-08T23:09:00.006+08:00

truly an inspiration.
got it from montgomery via park&cube's site.

was mugging at sch till 10pm.
DSS was a pain in the neck and i was more than determined to finish all the crap before i left school, regardless when the deadline is cos i really wana go out on friday.
my nails are shocking pink and im still wondering why i chose that.
my eyes are dry from my contacts and i promise i'll switch to greenie specs tmr.

was really praying hard for 61 to come at 10pm at NP bus stop.
and believe it or not, in a MIN'S time, it came, right behind 74.
i was truly grateful to God cos not eating for 9 hours can almost kill a person who's on medication and gastritis.
and i've never longed for food so much in a long time.
haha.
the weird thing was, my tummy wasn't even making a single noise.
hmm, does stress make it shut up???

credits to kadanata.bs

YAYS!!

i finally got my black faux leather jacket!

it's the exact cutting i wanted and it's uber similar to the one from H & M.

YAYNESS.

plus, it's only at $29, compared to $45 to a not-so-nice-one at other blogshops.

i really hope it won't be too short for me =(

who says taller beings get everything?

we sometimes wish to be shorter kay!

it's been a long while since i've really prayed and did my quiet time.

can really understand why some people just become too busy for God.

in sg, it's so easy to give that excuse.

who isn't busy anyway?

sure, exams will pass, but they'll come back haunting you sooner than you realise.

oh how i hate this system.

and i still wana be a strawberry farmer.

im even playing a farming game on Facebook.

shall "grow" and "harvest" strawberries soon.

im not sure why i like strawberries so much,

but from what i can recall,

i could only remember myself feeling the happiest when i ate strawberries straight from the shrubs in the farm or my balcony if the strawberry plant bears fruit.

berries = happiness?

berry happy?

haha, to me, it certainly could be the case.

im so tired.

i think i was deliberately trying to test how much i could bear.

im glad i did it with God's help.

im seeing double.

i really like eating Mac's apple pie, esp at 10.45pm,

char.

bodyshop, hmm.

2009-07-05T23:00:00.002+08:00

yup, im into body shop makeup cos i really like the shimmery eye shadow collection!
esp the summer one!
i shall try it one i get my 78 palette shipped over from US.
dang, it's SO LONG FROM NOW.

let's laugh at all those ridiculous photos together,
sing the night away,
and have many sweet dreams,
of our future happily ever afters.
it's sweet revenge, isn't it?

yup, dots, u should know what im talking about :D
cheers to freedom girl :)
let's hit the malls soon,
or maybe the park???
bbq??

i just ate honey toast,
char.

sleepy eyes.

2009-07-04T23:54:00.003+08:00

just got home not long ago from harbour front.
shopped for 5.5hrs and bought the following:

manuka honey
grey knitted cardi
nf denim shorts
log brown tube top
kope-ed some lancome sample prdts and mascara from mummy's free gift

yeah. i tink dat's it.
i took some photos of sushi tei's kiri-something something set but am too tired to upload it here.
it's a thousand times better than sakae and im a sushi tei fan already.
yes i know im eating carbs, but i cannot say no to baby sushi.
i want to go back to sushi tei now :(

was talking to mummy about dress sizing after we tried a couple of stuff at nf shop.
was asking her why on earth, no matter how much fat i lose, im still stuck at uk12, or maybe, when heaven's kind to me, bigger cutting will be a uk10.
and that's after losing 5kg in a month. *smacks head*
she says it's genes.
i hate that sentence.
it gives me an urge to dig out all relevant DNA and dump them out of the universe and into the milky way, whatever whatever, so that i'll never see it AGAIN.
argh.
so does it mean ive to lose 5x2 kg in order to skip around orchard road with many more uber nice clothes?
i think so, seriously.
i can't imagine the amt of discipline i need to have in order to achieve that.
no wonder girls are anoxeric.
can totally empathise with them.
all those love your bodies crap is like, i don't know, a momentary consolation to all the emotional struggles we have?
meg cabot wrote a book called size 12 is not fat and i loved her book.
not that i don't feel inspired at all, but i seriously don't think fairytales exist in this world.
maybe happy endings happen once a year if you're lucky? or twice?

yes, im f-g emo now cos im cranky and tired of always being in the larger spectrum of sizes be it shoes or clothes.
sometimes i always wonder why it's so.
im my worst enemy, i admit.
i really am.
i can accept everyone's flaws cept for mine.
do i have a disorder?
googling it now.

i like honey sandwiches for breakfast,
char.

the familiarity of many memories.

2009-07-02T21:22:00.003+08:00

blogger's acting up again.
can't upload pictures.
dang.

was just looking at Get's blog.
haha, her photos were all so CANDID!!!
and dots, you've a straight nose kay!
everyone has a lil imperfections here and there, but that shot was really nice :D
hahas.

im feeling lost now.
this week's been SO SO SO busy for me.
so much so that im sleeping at 10pm today.
can u imagine me, the nocturnal one gg to sleep at THAT TIME???!
totally headlines man.

exams and tests are never ending for me till end august.
it's a mad rush till the hols.
so i really don't know if i'll even have time to gorge myself at sake sushi buffet, shop in 3.5inches heels and paste 5 plasters on both swollen feet or camwhore in toilets.
girls like to do these stuff.
i don't know why either.
it's like guys who like to train in gyms???
don't know if that's the right comparison or not, but something to that effect.
really miss my girl friends.
i'll re-study my schedule again and squeeze whatever pathetic timings out to get out of my monotonous life.
who loves to mug??
be gone muggers.
i don't even know why my mum's agst sending me to arts school.
i could've made it there years ago.
dang.

poofie still doesnt like me and i don't know why.
he doesnt even sit next to me now.
sobs.
maybe absence makes the heart (dog's counted?) grow fonder and so i should ignore him from now?
kay, im planning strategy one now : how to get your canine to respond to you in one week.

can't wait for saturday to go out with mummy.
she promised i could get whatever i liked, so im crossing my fingers for black laced wedges to be existent there.

i realised i need to eat 1400 kcal a day and burn 200 calories a day to hit my goal weight.
ouch, i'll STARVE.
and those aniti biotics make me so hungry.
what chemicals did they use anyway??????
never ate as much before.
now i eat 2 big meals and 3 small meals a day and im only JUST NICE.
gosh, those pills are scary.

im stressed.
i need weekends to come quickly.
LMS, be over soon,
pretty please?

listening to lady gaga's album,
char.

management lecture? im managing BOREDOM now.

2009-07-02T15:14:00.003+08:00

credits of seaofshoes.

really <3 maniac's cream one sleeved jacket.
the scary thing is, i actually drew such a design for my fashion design entry last year???!!
gosh.
but this version's obviously way better cos the cutting's exceptionally bold.
i wonder when singaporeans will dress this way too.
can we ditch too-basic basics soon?
i highly doubt so.
plus, the humid weather's to blame.
im still thinking of how to wear my f21 high waisted denim jeans.
i need high high wedges.
maybe i'll hit aldo or mondo soon =D

DN's very quiet now. =(
cos we're all busy and stuff.
sad. =(
was thinking of taking photos of our own outfits or whatever.
others may think this is spastic, but don't the most stupid things bring happiness?

omg.
management lecture's so boring.
so glad ive got pinky (haha, the nickname of my laptop) with me today.
YAWNS.

went to watch transformers yestd night.
it was quite gd, but yes, i also thought it was a little too long.
overall, it was still a movie worth watching. :D

im nodding already.
LMS project tmr morning.
GREAT.

im so looking forward to end august.
i want to go out to work soon :D

still yawning,
char.

relief.

2009-06-30T20:45:00.002+08:00

got back POA and macroecons results today...
did not too bad =D
B+ and A-.
tho i really thought i could've done much better for POA.
i shall continue studying harder.
i really thank God for sustaining me for the first term at school cos i had a really hard time adjusting to the hectic project deadlines and endless tutorial hw.
i'll learn how to love everything i do and strive for the best for God.
i need to master the skill of not panicking under stress.
im the gan chiong type.
hahah.

blogger's indeed still mad cos pictures are uploaded but the body entry does not show any existence of the supposed picture which was uploaded.
crap server they have.
i'd wana change to wordpress or livejournal soon.
but this means ive to leanr how to read CSS codes, which are nothing but all greek to me.

tmr im gg to watch transformers with some people from TB30 after DSS lesson.
really uber happy that tmr's not a stressful day.
just hope that it won't rain tmr~

i was so tired that i slept thru 40% of the b.law lecture today.
i was really dead to the world despite the noise.
i tend to switch off and become more grouchy on tuesday.
hmmm.

oh dots!
when are we going to mondo shoe sale????
my mum's gg to kill me if i buy more shoes =(
and im so going to find those black laced wedges.
i saw smth similar at aldo but the price was ______.
i'll be hitting harbourfront centre for shopping on saturday and update u on more GSS sales yeah?
gosh, i realised that ever since i entered poly, i've to shop once a week to keep my engine going.
that's excluding online buys i have =(
there's a reason why i've got a tonne of super high wedges and heels at home.
the prob is, how can i survive walking around for more than 3 hours with a 4inch high heel???
not as if the countless slopes in NP are helping???
for my cousin's wedding, it hink ive got 5 pairs of uber high ones to choose from.
ha!
this will ensure that those cousins of mine won't keep reminding me not to shrink.
HELLO?
im also wondering why im at a miserable heighht of 166cm???
dam short =(
i shrunk.
argh.

okays, suffering from sleep deficiency's no joke.
i need to REST.

she's hugging all the soft toys now,
char.

whalala, POA and Econs devoid me of sleep.

2009-06-29T21:24:00.003+08:00

yeah.
blogger's MAD.
pics can't be uploaded.
gave up on trying.

anyways, today i was so dam tired i slept on the sofa for an hr the minute i reached home.
sleeping at abt 2am today isn't going to help but im real glad that after tmr, i can finally sleep in peace.
i hate tuesdays.
but my timetable's quite okay compared to others.
you can't have the best of both worlds :)

im hungry.
okay, eating dinner at 5.30pm's not not effective.
plus, when im stressed, I EAT.
bad bad.
i need to find food.
IM STARVING.

Poofie still doesnt like me hugging him and would sit 1m away from me when we share the same couch.
i love poofie but it's things like that that DRIVE ME MAD.
am i that detestable that A DOG HAS TO DISTANCE HIMSELF AWAY FROM MEEEEE??
he's biased.
but mummy loves him all the more.
she even said she loves poofie as much as her children.
HHAHAHHAH.
animals.
pets.
argh.

my brain cells are going to die completely after 4hours of mugging, in which i think i'll be zombie-like after that.
oh tuesdays.
HOW I HATE TUESDAYS.

which day do you hate the most??

still searching for food,
char.

2009-06-28T16:03:00.002+08:00

credits to sallyjanevintage.

it's been a long time since ive been to a nature reserve.
i visited sugei buloh once and it was really great, apart from 5 female mosquitoes sucking my blood for 45 mins that led to a week-long itch.
maybe we should just slow down and take a breather.
i wonder how living in a countryside would be.
i don't mind planting my own vege, cleaning chicken poop, milking cows(this was fun, tired it b4, tho v tiring), and cooking my own meals.
sounds fun and ehh, grandma-ish??

credits to jakandjil

how can i express my love and obsession over those shoes on ur right???!
im praying that i'll find them at vivo so mummy can use her vouchers to get it for me.
heck those 18 pairs of shoes i have at home.
im already selling them cos the stacks are getting SCARIER by the week.

paris fashion week's been such an interesting event to watch on youtube and fashblogs.
seriously, i certainly wonder why foreigners are leading in the fashion trends.
what about asians?
we do have a few outstanding ones in the fashion industry but it's miserable compared to the other countries.
maybe that's why our currencies are smaller?
gosh, this can so link to econs.
ewwk, i dun quite like econs cos graphs make me see stars.
rmb how i failed like MAD for emath and addmath graphs, dotty??
hahha!
i was drawing weird curves and lines which were all crap to me.
i don't have an affinity with mathematical related subjects.
really.

ouch, my contacts are getting dry.
sigh.
and im tired even after sleeping for 8 hours.
holiday withdrawal symptoms ??
yes, definitely.
i cant believe NP doesnt have extended hols for everyone.
i think we need it.
look at how hard we work.
=(

oh dang, im still searching for the shoes on US websites but their versions arent as nice.
hope u'll like ur wedges, alicia!
so sad that they dun even have size40.
DISCRIMINATION.

i just realised ive got a lot of clothes in my wardrobe.
pants and jeans esp.
i can believe ive got 5 pairs of jeans in different wash, cutting, length and colour.
the prob is, 5 days in poly zaps up most of it and by the time i reach saturday, my wardrobe's emptied.
hahha.

yawns.
shall bully poofie now.
poofie's got 19 views on youtube.
not bad for a small dog :D

breathing in the fresh after-rain air,
char_

gee, plastics out there? what abt wax?

2009-06-27T22:57:00.003+08:00

haha, i duno why i like that song by GG anyway =D
well, poofie's on youtube~
try finding him if u can =)
i dun think my tags showed up in the search engine tho.

argh.
i feel super energetic tonight and IM FREAKING HAPPY to get my 78 colour palette for eyes and cheeks from ebay!!
man, u don't know how long ive waited for that perfect combi for olive skin. =(

OMG. FIONA XIE IS FAKE.
read this --> www.alexlab.com/2007/12/11/fiona-xie-exposed/
gosh.
i thank god my eyes arent as small as hers =/

rui en's song tao yan a super nice song.
im addicted to it =X

shalala~
char.

packing up the mess.

2009-06-26T21:01:00.002+08:00

credits to park&cube.

after jogging for a pathetic 20 mins, im now eating a big bowl of broccoli and my stomach's feeling nice and cozy after 2 huge bowls of chicken&vege soup.
can't believe i skipped a meal of carbs so easily today.

had to do move those lazy bones of mine at the park to neaten up those loose wires in my brain.
im almost completing DSS progress report, later gg to do up bits of managemt and then tmr at 5am, i shall do b law script.

im trying to acknowledge the fact that i myself am only human and so, ive to depend on God fo his strength, wisdom and love.
it's like every two days, the chemicals in my brain have to churn out an imbalance of hormones to make me feel more down than ever.
it's tough to lead my life.
it's all about mind power.
u cave in, that's it.
end of story. at the same time, i don't wana end up like Micheal Jackson.
dead within secs.
that'll be totally meaningless.

im at my 6th last broccoli and mummy's came back home.
poofie's sucking up to her in great hope of getting more of his limited edition treats from taiwan.
smart dog.
my mum even scolds me over poofie.
i can't believe im worth less than a toy poodle.

okay, im done with 2 and a half serving of vege.
my neck is breaking from facing the com for 6 hrs and im getting cranky.
i don't know if i can even wake up tmr.

does anyone know how to acquire super hero abilities for just 24hrs? =(

insanity,
her.

is it even worth it?

2009-06-26T14:25:00.003+08:00

credits to stylish wanderer.

i feel super...
well, not just emotionally exhausted,
but i feel very much like a robot today.
it's like im devoid of any human feelings already.

sometimes people don't appreciate te things you do and you wonder why on earth you're even doing those freaking stuff to make yourself even more tired than ever.
maybe what charinne said was true, be more selfish for your own sake.
i really really think i should be.
since almost everyone else does it, so why should i not?
im sick of it.
i really am.
grandma just asked me to eat cos it's medicine time.
i really truly feel like crying now.

freak it, my sis would say.
yeah, really freak IT.
im hopping pissed now.
don't ask me why.
i know im not perfect either.
maybe after snipping off a month's worth of fingernails and drowning myself in work, i'll feel much better at night.
argh, maybe being short-fused today's a side effect of antibiotics.

im utterly disappointed.
somehow i really am.
even 9hours of sleep didnt make me any better.
ive got a pile of work to do.
i wana practice escapisim.

contemplating to jog or not since it's raining.
maybe a jog in a rain would be something fun?
who cares if thunder strikes me or not.

in the worst of moods,
twenty.

oh shucks.

2009-06-26T00:57:00.002+08:00

wanted to upload photos.
but eh, ive got no nice pics or photos to upload recently.
okays, i havent blogged for days cos im simply tired.
really, really exhausted.
and no to mention, stressed.

well, over my MIA days, ive been to sch for b law proj, rotaract bbq, dss proj and finally shopping with alicia and dots.
oh a happy birthday alicia!!!
enjoy being 17 while u can ~
once we're 18 we'll be adults already. =X

went to many many many shops at vivo today.
zara was beyond disappointment, and the otehr, argh.
bought most of my stuff from f21.
ive spent like abt $143 worth of vouchers there and im still thinking of dragging mum there soon.
i really <3 the wasit belt i got tho one stud came out.
sad, but i fixed it anyway. =)

HW's piling, projects due, blah blah.
i can't breathe already.
worse is that tues thr's POA test.
thank god erica reminded.

i cant sleep thanks to antibiotics.
and im hungry.
YES.
HUNGRY.

i don't wana grow fatter anymore =(
i gym so hard each week, and im eating ruffles now.
gosh.
dang.

hungry and grouchy,
char.

blooming experiences.

2009-06-23T23:48:00.002+08:00

credits to stylish wanderer.

went to vivo w mummy today and bought stuff at f21.
the f21 outlet thr's simply fab and im so gg back.
ive got vouchers to spend~
really thank God for that.
retail therapy heals everything! =D

im acting very emo lately, acc to my mum.
i ask a billion questions abt my weird self, wanting to get an answer to the unexplainable things i do.
she's dumbfounded and just brushes it off anyhow.
i know she's not doing just as fine.
sigh.
i'll survive, im sure.
for im more than a conqueror.

im so not done w managemt project.
i promise to be in the right frame of mind tmr b4 i go for the bbq later in the afternoon.
procrastination's creeping in.
shucks.

shall cut my nails tmr.
almost scratched my sclera while grabbing my contacts out.
sigh.

ive got a thousand memories in my mind.
it's swirling in the brain juice of mine.
let's step up the challenge,
and see who lasts till the end.
i will not admit defeat.

sha la la la la la,
char.

i need retail therapy.

2009-06-22T21:27:00.004+08:00

yellow looks so pretty here that im so getting smth yellow to complete the colour wheel in my cupboard.
short of purple, green and orange tho. =(

i like the casual feeling of this look.
but i don't have nice long legs.
forget it.
i'll just treat this as my eye candy =)

this reminds me of my Zara pants.
im still sad that i put it back for whatever insane reason.
oh nvm, i shall just try my luck at vivo then.
mum's screaming over my request for 100bucks of vouchers, when she clearly knows ive been paying for a tonne of things.
argh.
$100 that includes a present, 3 tops, one cardi, one nail polish topcoat and 2 other items is okay right???
she screaming that im unreasonable.
i want to work in august.
I REALLY WANT TO.
does anyone have any contacts??

abt DN.bs, im not sure if it can be done up on ur bday alicia!!
cos everyone in NP's struggling to finish up projects and so loads of stuff have to be shelved for the moment...
so how???
mind we start it later?? =)
i wana make sure it's gd and not slipshot stuff =)
any ideas?

had b law and mgmt project today.
my brain cells were so dead tired that i headed straight for the bed once i reached home and napped for abt 4 hrs.
and im still sleepy nw.
this is bad.
i need to do mgmt planning now.
oh projects~

im so gg to think of 1001 ways of how to persuade or trick my mum into giving me the money.
do they have dummy guide bks for this?
im really in need of it.
shall hit google now.

she's yearning for some fun shopping,
char.

adorable creatures.

2009-06-20T20:09:00.010+08:00

Poofie's the best pet i've ever had =D

my whole family's never regretted having him.

he's family already =D

it's been a tiring day of KB, gym, library visiting,and poofie's celebration.

but it was all worth it =D

the maid at home's driving everyone nuts, poofie included, and im beyond glad that we're saying BYEBYE to her soon.

imagine a person who takes so many stuff from you OUT OF YOUR CUPBOARD for not just once, but A FEW TIMES.

okay, thou shall not be angry after giving her a 45min lecture at the top of my voice till you could hear me on the 9th lvl.

yes, make me dam pissed and i'll make you, not just cry, but DEAF.

my lungs function exceptionaly well when my blood pressure reaches boiling point. =)

haha.

anyways, gtg read a bk i borrowed from the library~~~

i love strawberry shortcakes,

char.

just for laughs.

2009-06-20T00:26:00.002+08:00

credits to blogskins.

thought thsi was really hilarious.
if only the human body could eliminate fats when we consume such stuff!!! =D

P.S. im still sore abt the fact that mum bought double choco hazelnut icecream. i cant eat nuts for NUTS sake.
dang.

it's our sunshine after the stormy weather.

2009-06-19T23:44:00.004+08:00

credits to troops.

super like this.
really really, esp since it's GREY.
nvm, i WILL GET SMTH DECENT FROM VIVO next wk.
i promise.

went out w alicia today.
didnt manage to watch montana but we had a fun time at plaza sing.
we makan-ed kfc, the most sinful meal of the week for me, bought stuff from diaso, went to spotlight to get friendship band strings and the headed to SMU for the entrepreneurship seminar.

i've to say that it was truly inspirational.
it did shatter my fantasies quite a bit but im still very passionate about my dreams.
i prayed abt it on the way home and i'd much conviction.
i've never felt so strongly for anything before.
im really glad i found my direction in life.
it's a mad decision to risk my finances in this area, esp in fashion wear, where there're a tonne of competitors out there who've every ability to outshine you.
but thinking abt things in a more positive light,
perhaps i could do smth to gather up all these talents?
i don't know. i just want to get doublenumber.bs.com done up well.
let's go one step at a time.
=)

oh!!
it's POOFIE's FIRST BIRTHDAY~~~
he's officially a year old on 20 JUNE 2009!!
YAY!
we're buying him new toys, he shall wear a costume, we'll buy a cake meant only for human consumption for celebration's sake.
we really <3 our puppy =D
it's always great to see him after a tiring day.
<3 poofie!

next week will be total madness w projects, etcetc.
sigh.
chiong chiong =/

excited abt poofie's birthday celebrations,
char.

one step at a time.

2009-06-17T20:13:00.004+08:00

credits to seaofshoes

listening to : one time - justin bieber

slacked the max at home.

i ate, slept, disturbed poofie, played countless com games, visited enough fashion sites to make me see stars, surfed youtube and realised that many of my fav vids were removed (argh).

im pretty sure i'll be nocturnal again tonight.

i woke up at 1pm today.

horrids.

i don't know what's wrong with me. =/

all i know is that the electricity bill's gona skyrocket this month cos i really cant live w/o turning on the computer for at least 6 hours.

no wonder my degree shot up by nearly 200 in 6 months.

my mum almost fainted when she found out.

she asked if i dug out my eyeballs during O lvls.

the thing is, i think the culprit were the korean dramas on youtube which i watched before every paper. haha, i just needed to really stay happy before those scary papers.

i don't know exactly why, but im feeling much much much happier today.

without shopping, without nice clothes, even with super bad hair day today, chipped nails, being with a grouchy puppy which refuses to entertain me.

i guess i just needed to go back to where i originally belonged.

the drastic change in me over the years doesn't seem too good to me now.

was reading through many diary entries of mine and realised that my entries were gradually becoming emo and despondent. i simply forgot how it felt to laugh my guts out, pig out with meimei and gossip abt guys late at night, daydream happily in the mrt train, write songs on tissue papers, or how great it felt to just be me and not someone else.

does everyone have an identity crisis now and then?

i seriously do, that's for sure.

i'll find myself, with God's help,

one step at a time.

still daydreaming and watching youtube,

char.

it has to end with a smile.

2009-06-17T01:51:00.004+08:00

credits to jak and jil.

too tired to blog yestd night.
really.
it's been such a long time that i've been that affected.
it's complicated.
im glad i figured out issues which were going on meaninglessly for years.
it was seriously a waste of every resource u could possible think of.
too much pain too much disappointment; just forget it.
tho there're umpteen songs that remind me,
i believe that i have the ability to just treat this whole thing as a joke.
i will walk away from the storm gracefully.
my thanks to all my best mates who've shown me that u all will always be for me.
it really meant so much. =)

credits to devianart.

just realised that 70% of my closet is black.
i don't know why.
and, most of my nail polish is pink.
weird.

yawns,
really exhausted from all the busy stuff today.
left HOGC early cos i decided to go for KB and gym.
KB was super uber fun w the new instructor.
coincidentally it was "venting" session where we'll do loads of attack style moves and in doing so we can actually vent out anger, frustrations blahblah.
felt so much better after the class tho my legs were aching like shit.
gymed for a while and then went home to play maplestory w meimei cos she was screaming i-wana-play-maple-but-mummy-bans-me-now SOS to me already.
haha, the exp was dam hilarious during our monster carnival match agst these 2 other guys.

me: "OMG!! NO POT!!DYING LIAO!!!"
meimei:"wait la, im flirting w the guy~"
me:" ^^" "
meimei: "yay i distracted him! look he's proclaiming his 'love' for me le! and he's LAGGING~"
me: "SHUT UP WE'RE FREAKING LOSIINNNG! "
meimei:" kaykay, whakakas,ehh, i died~ oh oh."
me:" great, now we're lagging so much in score."
meimei:" want me to continue flirting to distract one guy??"
me: "HAHAHAHHAHHAA.*bangs head and is speechless at her rare gift*"

oh well, her strategy so didnt work.
i'd to acc so many pts to make the other party lag.
my keyboard became flatter already.
HAHHA.
we played so many rounds.
and meimei infected me w her mad sense of humour.
basically i laughed so hard for abt one hour, plus screaming her her to focus too.
hahaha.
but i must say the guys liked her tho.
no wonder her phone keeps ringing non stop.
hai~

im searching for a better me.

turning in finally,
char.

pull through the avalanche.

2009-06-14T21:16:00.003+08:00

gosh, i forgot which website i got this from.
credits to whoever took this amazing picture.
really wanting shoes like hers before this year's christmas.

listening to avalanche - marie digby, you belong with me - taylor swift

i really loved marie's first album...
but i didnt really like any of her songs from this year's breathing underwater album cept for the one im listening to.
sad.
seems like only michelle branch's the best.
her songs have been in my player for 3 years.
she beats taylor swift too, tho i really like some of taylor's songs too. =)

oh well, charinne's FINALLY off maplestory so im back blogging in peace.
today's quite a normal day for me.
church, lunch, charinne's dental app, shop ard, home, strangled poofie, was happily munching away home cooked dinner by grandma, and now, drowning myself in tea cos i dun wana sleep tonight.
i really don't want to.
for whatever reason.
maybe im pms-ing.
HAHAHA.

was thinking abt the format and the identity of twentysixtwenty a few moments ago.
that was after i visited a million other amazing flogs (meaning fashion blogs).
i don't know why but im starting to doubt my abilities to do these stuff.
sch's driving almost every saint teen in singapore CRAZY and seriously, i don't want to leave our flog dangling in,not just mid air, but drowning in a deserted sea of websites that no one bothers to visit cos just not appealing enough.
im a perfectionist, i want things to be more or less good on my first try.
i can accept mistakes and failures, but i really cant handle big crashes.
you'll prob never see me again.
haha.

oh well, we'll see how it goes!
i've always got alicia to come up w quirky stuff for 2620 =)
really thank God for her.
we can crap on and on at 2am and scream "WE FLOW~" at almost every craving or fashion discoveries we have.
im really grateful for people i can feel so comfortable with, regardless of my weird dressing on some days cos im just to emo to do anything normal.
my mum says my face isnt an open book, it's my dressing on PMS days that speaks more than a million words.
ha, so pls dun bother me when i look like an alien.
i'll prob shoot beams of lights at you????=X
maybe we can start a brand new series of star wars then XD

tmr's monday!!
should be able to spend time w sis.
i really miss spending quality time with my family.
after all, they've all i've got.
not much compared to many, but im still contented.
i like the feministic environment i live in.

identity crisis,
Your love gave me hope,
and her insecurities taken away.

i know im just about to experience more of your Grace.
that's what was promised.

<3 char.

happily tired.

2009-06-13T23:36:00.008+08:00

FRIDAY:

hit the cathay with alicia and dots to watch ghost of girlfriend's past!
the show was AWESOME.
really.
if u think you're a human with a good sense of humour, you'll laugh ur guts out like i did for the whole mmovie.
jennifer garner looked really gorgeous there tho =)

really enjoyed myself w thr girls!!
alicia had to leave early but we'll spend mroe time tgt net time =D

all in all, it was just such a relief with the tests over and im glad im reviving my social life again.

SATURDAY:

after kickboxing and gym, mummy said it was time for shopping at town area.

so, for SEVEN HOURS we went to suntec, marina sq, raffles city and wisma.

sounds impressive but im dam pissed w the whole lousy shopping exp.

i didnt get 5 items of my choice cos all were SOLD OUT already.

what was i thinking when i placed it back man.

argh.

nvm, we'd sakae sushi to comfort my rumbling tummy. =(

im supposed to be on a strict diet but i somehow ate abt 1600 plus calories for the day again.

sigh. =(

im just so dam tired now.

i think shopping's like exercise.

really.

haha screenshots of maplestory-ing w sis.

guess who's who???

hahahh.

im imaature at time and play the most boring games.

but who says we can't game and do all these??

we should be open to all sorts of things.

oh my mama, how could i eat supper AGAIN???

worse still, it my MUM who's feeding me.

more jogging i guess.

argh,

char.

freak it. everyone's saying it.

2009-06-12T00:26:00.000+08:00

yeah yeah, i bet everyone's moaning and groaning just about everything that's happening in our lives.
nothing seems to go really right, yeah?

tmr's law paper and im still mugging the last chapter.
im so dead.
it's like 6 hrs of serious mugging's not helping.
my brain's 65% full and i need it to be at full cap tmr.
i'll have anotehr 1 hr or so of recap tmr morning.
chiong chiong chiong~

ive drank enough caffaine to keep me going i suppose.
tmr's a day out with the gilrs and im so looking forward to the revival of my social life.
like seriously, i often feel that im getting out of touch from society.
daily routines aren't that bad after all but balancing work and play's certainly a challenge for me.
esp when i only think of the holidays and tonnes of other crappy stuff i could do after the stressful times.
and i procrastinate.
oh yes, im a champion at that.
gosh.

i need to focus more on the subject at hand,
than to think about anything else.

okay, just a few more hours and im done.

with tonnes of contract terms and laws in my head,
char.

2009-06-10T21:48:00.003+08:00

meimei and i decided to play w poofie for abt 2 hrs by hanging him up in the air with meimei's comforter!!!

it was dam fun traumatizing the animal.

HAHHAHAHA.

but he's dam cute.

i love the first picture!!!

*squishing poofie already*

too bad he's too greedy and fat to join any doggie competition.

maybe grooming ones will be good??=D

slacked pretty much today.

gg to chiong tmr since i'll be gg out w my girlfriends on fri afternoon.

watching ghosts of gf past, which im pretty sure will be a hit among all of us.

oops, laptop batt's very low,

so that's all.

JIAYOU FOR B LAW TEST TB30!!

we can do it (tho we hate LMS qn )!!

love,

char.

twentysixtwenty ; passion's reflection

2009-06-10T00:03:00.002+08:00

u've no idea how long ive been finding smth like this.
i cant believe mum actually threw hers away cos thr was mould on the sleeves *faints*
im into blazers now,
despite the scorching weather.
i need to live in temperate countries.

as usual, her shoes are WOW but i doubt i'll ever get them cos a size40 will look dam weird in these kind of shoes.

alicia and i have been madly busy over tonnes of stuff but we'll be setting up twentysixtwenty on the 26th june 2009.
it's a trendspotting fashion blog with a tonne of stuff which neither of us are sure of succeeding in but it's worth a shot =)
let's get the entrepreneurship spirit going!

talking abt that,
i just received a letter of rejection for scholarship.
oh well i expected it.
i didnt really want it as badly as i thought, esp after the interview.
it's kind of weird knowing that you've got so many conflicting opinions of many matters on hand.
i mean it's not like i need a split personality to stress me out further.
gahh.

coming back to twentysixtwenty.wordpress, which is an empty shell now cos planning's still very much at an early stage, im feeling both excited and anxious at the same time.
time's always a constant constraint tho thr's both of us to keep the site gg.
we need to think of publicity, gain a lot more product knowledge, master the art of posting a reader-friendly post, maintain the site, blah and blah.

it's quite a mouthful,
but as i said, it's a true test of our passion.
success has to come about from sheer hard work, and i also strongly believe that the learning process will be very beneficial for us, right??
there's nothing to lose from it, other than a probable what-the-hell-were-you-all-doing impression we get from readers.
but we always have the love and support from our friends to tide us over. =)

it's better to be a fool for a moment, than to be one forever.
let's take that step of faith.

cheers,
twenty.

crossing my fingers.

2009-06-08T19:17:00.002+08:00

credits to sally jane vintage.
i love her vintage clothes on etsy, but i cant afford it =( esp w international shipping =(

listening to - My Shoes by Jordan Pruitt
reminds me of many calls i'd with my girlfriends.

im so dead.
ive only covered 1.5 chapters of Macro Econs when im supposed to finish all of them BY NOW.
gosh.
im already holiday-ing already.
this is bad.

im freaking glad that the air con's up and workin cos the weather's been impossible these days.
im high on caffaine now cos ive finished 3 pots of tea.
in 3 hours.
hahah, and i can't believe im on my fourth now.
i think i'll get insomia tonight.
or isit morning since i sleep at 1am??

today's been quite a boring day.
slacking around and went around screaming when i realised Poofie dipped that fat head of his into grandma's bowl of CHICKEN CURRY.
yes, he'd a big mouthful of it and was PROTESTING LOUDLY when i grabbed that bowl of human food away.
his fur was covered in curry, and his breath was........*coughs coughs*
he's got some phlegm tho, but is now alright after 2 meals.
how do i know??
cos he's happily bouncing around the house now.
sighs.

facebook's driving me nuts cos i cant upload any photos thr.
fb sucks.
it gets jammed up during BORING lectures too.
argh.
hopeless thing.
tweeter's equally boring unless you've got a blackberry.

im sure things will seem SO MUCH better after tmr.
i'll mug now.
and have sweet,
no sweeter dreams later,
hopefully. =)

love,
char.

shopping heals the heart <3

2009-06-07T21:55:00.018+08:00

took a train down to tampines one central mall today =D

that's my mum sleeping in the train while meimei and i fooled around camwhoring.

loads of people were staring and so we glared back.

we've got training back at sch, so one glare solved all the problem =)

hahahha~

i decided nt to wear what was planned cos i was simply not in a mood to.

i went all black in courtesy of charinne.

taken at G2000.

the salesgirls were staring too but since customers always come first, we might as well take advantage of the situation yeah??

it was such a blast to find so many mirrors around the mall.

meimei was busy combing her hair at almost every mirror we could find while i was fretting over my smudged eyeliner (i did a horrible job cos i only had 5 mins to choose clothes and so makeup. woke up late sobs.)

i didnt like my hair colour at this angle so i thought of changing it to this =)

what do you think?

another crazy sistas shot.

we <3>

i'll go google the name of the inventor =)

maybe it's a female???=D

my hair looks horrendous in this photo.

oh well, i need the hair salon again enxt month.

sigh.

MUMMY ACTUALLY VOLUNTEERED TO TAKE THIS IN THE TOILET.

hahahah i think she ate too much junk food with us already!!!

the lao aunties were like "no wonder she's got such daughter, look at her".

hahahha, was dam hilarious man.

it's been a long time since ive had such a great laugh,

esp at the TOILET.

hahahah.

along the way home~

taken at raffles place cos all of us wanted to jump train to get more sleep along the way home =D

charinne surrenders and becomes grumpy.

she can really whine.

HAHAHA.

she's gg to smack me if she sees this.

nvm, ive gotten used to it since sec3 ever since i sat with doro!! =D

okay, im expecting another smack this tues when i see her. *gasps*

hahahha.

here's what i bought and ate for the day:

maybelline watershine collagen nude lipstick (watsons having a great offer for this)

77th street messy woven grey cotton scarf at $9.95 (last one at halfprice!!)

black woven belt at $5 =D

delifrance chicken sandwich

2 bowls of vege soup

5 xiao long bao

spare ribs claypot rice

35 pieces of pringles chips = 260 calories =X

yeah.

that's abt it.

it excludes much more food ive eaten.

hahaha, i cant keep track of it cos tampines has ALOT of great food.

topshop and dorothy perkins were quite a disappointment tho.

so my verdict for tampines one is a 6.5/10.

i actually got bored there.

that's bad, cos the shopping queen's usually quite happy with anything at the malls.

yawns yawns.

shall visit my pet at pet's society now =D

i want her to become bling bling!~

but i need more coins.

argh.

any suggestions??

i enjoyed a fun day!

char.

since you're hot and cold,let's just freeze everything.

2009-06-06T19:30:00.009+08:00

rah.
i adore knitted slouchy pullovers.
i know it's summer but i still like them so much.
i cant believe that after searching nearly the WHOLE of singapore, including high end shops, they dont even have a decent cotton loose pullover.
i thought they'll have stuff like that to match with beachwear?

her shoes are amazing.

im very inspired by the first look.
sadly i don't have high boots with me.
it's on my shopping list already.
will def get it before GSS ends.
the cutup leggings are super cute too.
thought of cutting mine too.
but mummy will scream, plus my maid has "wonderful" laundry skills.

im gg out to tampines one mall tmr!!~
already planned my outfit:
knee high gladiators
caramel short boho dress w bysi brown belt
grandma's 30year old brown vintage bag
2 wooden bangles
pair of wooden earrings

i know it's dam brown. i duno what's my obsession w that colour either. =/

was super relieved that POA's over =D
seaofshoes dress made me a lil dizzy at first, but hey, look closer and you'll see that it's got patterns on the underside too!
wonder if it could be worn inside out too?
i like quirky stuff =D

i was stunned when i came across this picture.
it gave me a " you made a mess out of my life" kind of impression.
a lil dark and mysterious but i really like how the whole setting of the whole scene and of cos, the model's hair's simply fab.
i'll definitely dye my hair back to dark caramel by next month.
and maybe rebonding??
i duno.
im always broke thanks to shoes.

those wicked lashes of hers left me speechless.
i love collecting fake lashes in hope that i can wear them after my plastic surgery, which will happen in a dinosaurs' year's time.
why?
cos tho mum's agreeable to get rid of those gross eyelids of mine, money's always the ultimate problem.
argh.
something random; i think lace leggings are a unique statement of confidence. arent they?
i havent mastered the courage to wear or buy them at any time yet.
maybe i will, after a pack of skittles =D

wonder of doro's back from taiwan yet!~
miss her already!
and all of my girl friends out there!!
i want common tests to end asap so that i can plan my super shopping and sleepover adventure with them!
let's bitch, eat, shop, cry, laugh, scream, and perhaps drink vodka again?
haha, that's if i can even get pass those cashiers at 7-11.
or maybe i'll approach another guy outside the convenience store to help us get a few like last year's chalet!!
tho the alcohol that day tasted exceptionally bad that day due to you-know-why-and-who, i still had a blast of fun seeing u all conk out one by one after half a can =D
hahahha, ive got training at home so it's not a fair comparison =D
hahahaha~

thinking about all these brings about loads of happiness in my heart.
certainly, i've had the best years of my life in st nicks despite all my tears due to extreme pressure in school.

listened to so many songs today.
here're random lines to sum up my thoughts for the day:

life has moments hard to describe,
feeling great and feeling alive.
life is amazing with you on the ride.

you're a bridge ive got to burn.
im already gone.
ran out of words, ran out of time, ran out of reason.
never going to take it back.
im listening to my heart.

As the crowd passes by,
she'll pretend to be busy.( Miss Invisible -Marie Digby)

do check out the last song.
the lyrics are shockingly similar to one of my diary entries.

im living in happiness and freedom now.
i chose the right place to be.
im certain, im sure.

<3 loads of love,
char.

i turn around to find myself.

2009-06-04T23:32:00.004+08:00

ive got a sudden urge to start expressing those mixed feelings of mine.
im quite sure it's the setback from DSS today that's causing this.
what's done is done, and charissa shall move on.
just like i did in st nicks.
it was a shocking set of scores i got from sec 3 to sec 4 and i know my teachers weren't expecting anything better than a double digit score from me.
but with God's help, i proved them wrong anyway.
in 3 weeks, i put in so much hard work, tears, sweat and suffered from serious insomia because i was so indignant over so many matters.

maybe i need counselling already.
and even if i did have,
would it make a difference?

having too many aspirations without any visible ways of achieving it often makes me feel that the future's stale and bleak.
i mean, my mum's often a wet blanket and slaps me out of my dreamland with remarks that don't agree at all with my dreams.
i don't know why im like that either.
maybe it's his bad genes.

there're many times i told myself to keep on wishing,
and there were umpteen times at midnight when i couldnt take it anymore.
my sculpture mentor once asked me why my works often reflect negativity in some way.
i couldnt answer so i just gave him a shrug to brush the topic off.
i try to be optimistic, i really do.
doesn't everyone try to do that too??

find balance between work and play.
i know i've to make adjustments to my lifestyle to suit the pace in BS.
i admit ive a bad habit of procrastination and im trying really hard to kick that dam habit of mine.

it's a wordy post i know.
maybe it should be in smaller font?

poofie cheers me up tho.
he's fluffy after mummy's brushing.
i like fluffy things.
but he doesnt seem to like me.
oh why.

need to find fulfilment again.
and i shall seek that in His Word now.
goodnight.

2009-06-04T20:09:00.002+08:00

yay. i cut bangs today.
my hair inspiration's katie holmes.
i think she's pretty =D
i want her eyes.
sigh.
nvm, if need be, coloured lens are always an option =D

im gg to dye my hair the exact shade as hers soon.
cos my not-brown-not-red hair's like...
yeah, kinda weird.
and i'd need to grow out my 3 hair partings for abt a week, before i do anything to my hair, says my hairstylist. =/
he even asked me why on earth i'd so many partings and i said oh, cos i always wake up late and just kiap any falling hair that lands on my face.
he was dam amused.

his boss was ratehr unhappy that he used a tonne of styling stuff on my hair to show me how to make it less flat.
yeah, im got genes from limp hair, sadly.
oh well, it was a fun 1hr trying to sort my pathetic lump of hair on my head.
u can't believe the amount of blow drying the poor guy had to do.
yeah, so now that ive got bangs, i need to grow things out well, so that when my hair's long enough, i can think of something crazier to do.
people who know me know that i change hair styles abt 2-3 times a year simply cos im bored.
yes, ive got weird sense of humour.
hahahha.

oh well, i just woke up from my nap from 4pm to 8pm.
gosh, shall chiong POA tonight, and perhaps upload more stuff for LMS project if my members appear online =D
could they be nocturnal like me already?

anyways, take care and don't get a shock when u see me, for better or for worse.
HAHA.
i need dinner.

Poofie says hello to all visitors,
char.

2009-06-03T21:35:00.003+08:00

credits to seaofshoes.

i like this corset belt. freaking cool.
looks like what people from starwars will wear tho,
but i still like it anyway =D

afer eating mangoes in the most unglam manner for 10mins,
i'm re-energised to LMS for the night and revise my DSS skills for tmr's quiz =D
DSS presentation today went on better than we thought! =D
we were super anxious and gan chiong before and during the presentation but im glad our hard work paid off =)
we worked really well as a team!
cheers to wb30 group1 !~

okays, i slept with my contact lense on for 3 hrs and my eyes sting like crazy.
like PAINFUL and BLOODSHOT.
and im whining abt not gg to sch tmr =(
only motivation's DSS quiz and no tutorials tmr = no HW for now.
la la la la.
im high cos of taiwan mangoes which i just ate.
dots, do eat loads of them for me in taiwan,
and at the same time,
help me check out nice looking han guo nan ren who look like kim bum and kim hyun joong over there =D
who knows, they could've flown over to taiwan rights??
muahahha, i think im gg mad already.

super happy to receive dotsy's emails everyday!!
kinda wondered if the same thing will happen if i plan to study overseas after poly.
financially it's not possible but who knows, i could just get luckaye =D
i wana get out of here and venture outside.
the grass could be greener on the other side of the field, right?

with my bloodshot eyes and craze over han guo nan ren,
i hereby send loads of love to all my girl friends out there! =D
you make life more meaningful for me each day.
oh yes you do.

with <3 <3 for mangoes,
char.

2009-06-02T22:00:00.002+08:00

ooh.
i just realised school starts later tmr!! =D YAYNESS.
hahas, i just woke up not long ago from my 4 hr nap.
shall go nocturnal again tonight.
tmr's DSS presentation and B.Law tutorial.
im trying to enjoy b.law tho.
the cases are driving me NUTS.

miss dots already!!! =/
alicia too!! =/
i want my tests to be over soon =(
then i can go out w you all...

it's true that only your best friends will stick by you no matter what happens.
i admit i moan and groan about almost every situation im in, gets excited easily when i see sparkly things ( i told you im like a magpie), day dream a lot...
but they still love me as i am.
im very thankful for that =)

ive got projects and HW to do now.
i'll study hard, so that we can achieve our dream business once the time is ripe ya?
cheers =)

2009-06-01T23:01:00.002+08:00

bleh.
one word.
stressed.
i can vomit blood already.
sat = POA
tues= MaEc
fri=B Law
that's more of next wk's stuff.
this week's a torture too.
im trying to find joy in my studies.
okay.
thou shall do POA, MaEc,LMS, DSS by tonight/ morning, and shall stufy from 11.15pm to 4am.
need be i shall chiong till 5.30 and get 1.5hrs of sleep for the next day.
yes, im not just nocturnal -- i can be a zombie already.
my eyes are bloodshot but i don't care.
i seem to doze off everywhere.
haha!
i rhyme like Gets does.
hi5 to you girl, on the messy busy lives we have.

it's like the most appropriate moment to scream life sucks but i somehow know i brought it upon myself?
the deal's quite simple: study hard study smart, ace your subjects, stay focused on the game, keep your mind on your goal = my diploma.
oh well.
yes, im freaking dam stressed.

kays, im wondering what i should start first.
ok, it shall be tutorial homework.
i'll make up for my slacking time.
here i come,
piles of paper.

2009-06-01T01:08:00.002+08:00

dotsy's off in TAIWAN, while im dying in sg with tests and projects.
really enjoyed myself so much on fri and sat w dots and alicia!!!~

it's uber late now.
im getting an itchy throat,
i need sleep.

my bed frame's coming on this saturday.
thank God.

i was thinking a lot more than usual today.
about people, my dreams, endless hw, shopping, blahblah.
it was like overload of info out of a sudden.
but ultimately, im really happy with what i have.

was talking to mummy one day when i told her i'd like to go to kenya someday.
here's a few countries i'd go b4 i hit 30:
hawaii
paris
kenya
new york
taiwan
germany

i should be able to, rights?
i'll prob sacrifice more bags and shoes that's all =)

i want a holiday too.
i miss my pillows and i know they miss me too.
hahahhaha.
i spend 4 hrs w them each day.
i think im shortening my lifespan already.

gg to sleep now.
im dizzy.

2009-05-30T21:37:00.002+08:00

phew, im exhausted now.
went for kickboxing and gym in the morning.
kb was super tiring cos today's endurance training.
legs are aching already =(

later in the afternoon i went out with dorothy!!! =D
went to ikea, anchorpt, and around city hall area.
visited raffles city and got into Topshop and Dorothy Perkins!!~
got a pair of denim skinnies and a dark grey bootcut jeans =)
saved about $100 on total bill cos it was on sale =D
yayness~
dots, bought far far more than me tho!
but counting my share in from yestd, im no better.
hahahha.

now im braindead, and i desperately need sleep.
yawns yawns...
changed blogskin,
FINALLY.
no nice decent skins nowadays.
all emo with weird blendings and the html code are in a MESS.
aigh.

wanted to go cut nails and paint a new nail colour.
okay. i shall.
i hate bare nails =(

2009-05-29T23:46:00.010+08:00

went out w alicia today!! =D
went to jurong pt and ate dinner at New York New York!!

we want our FOOD!!!!!
i look like a cannibal here.
muahahahhah

this meatball pasta thingy which i ordered.
it's said to be super sinful on the menu, so i gave it a try.
the spaghetti was great but the meatballs... i think my grandma can do better.

alicia's pink guava juice and my sour cranberry juice!!
haha, alicia said it was a gd appetitizer.
hahaha!

got sick of jurong pt so we went to city hall to explore city link, marina sq and suntech city.
at marina sq, we shopped at Zara!!!!
omg, i <3>
and im still amd that i didnt get my suspender pants. gosh, i <3>
WHAT WAS I THINKING WHEN I PUT THEM BACK???
dang, it was the exact same cutting worn on one of the models during one of US's fashion week. and it was freaking 400bucks.
while Zara's was like less than a quarter of it. im starting to dislike myself already.
sigh. i bought a tee anyway =)

later we went to SaSa and after that we wondered abt, and spotted miss selfridge.
we headed there and along the way came this reporter from new paper who wanted to interview us abt GSS.
after all the questions abt our shopping loots, which alicia and i could answer so easily cos we're 24/7 shopping queens, we were asked to take a photo w our shopping bags by the photographer. gosh, i really hope it never gets published. i can't imagine it. our names there are bad enough since they'll mention sch also. haha, but it was such a fun experience. alicia and i had such a great laugh after that.
SEE HOW POWERFUL RETAIL THERAPY IS?? PEOPLE CAN SPOT UR HAPPINESS FROM FAR FAR FAR AWAY. =) i love being a girl. i think i'd be gay of i were not.

walked to suntech to have iced mocha at coffee bean.
alicia was educating me abt the coffees made there since she was a barista there before =D
sounds fun but i hate cleaning up and breaking my nails.
hahaha, i know im being bimbotic here.
but that's just some flaws that i have, cos after all im only but HUMAN.

my loots of the day:
striped zara tee at 16.90
mavala lash protectant (cos my alshes are dropping at a fast rate) at 17.60
sch bag at 35.90
NYNY meal at 22
iced mocha at 6.60

i wan to fail math addition now.
i really do.
sigh.

after kickboxing and gym im gg out with DORO!! =D
hahahha.
i thought DORO sounds kawaii-er than DOTS/ DOTSY.
hahahhah, i think im gg to get whacked when i see her tmr.
haha, it's ikea and anchorpt tmr.

i can't believe there's still DSS and other projects to do.
i'll see how on saturday.

kays, gtg cutting my chipped finger nails. =(

it's been such a great time hanging out w my best buds!
really super duper happy today.
and i promise i'll study hard so that we can set up our business tgt as promised!~

2009-05-27T23:43:00.003+08:00

i need an adrenaline rush.
oh yes i really do.
it's been a long time since the insomia started creeping in.
i worry abt the minutes that pass,
but i've lost all co-ordination of my mind and hands.
it's total madness.
and i know it ain't over.
it's a constant battle we're fighting,
so what's the point of it?
it's the cost of our dreams, aspirations and goals,
we want to make it worthwhile,
isn't it??
such is the life we lead,
it's only our our brain power that people take heed.
why oh why,
i often ask,
do i write such meaningless paragraphs,
halfway through the war i'm having?
u ask me why,
i can only,
but shrug.
it's a wordy post,
yes i know.
--
im a free spirit by nature,
and mostly lazy as any human can get.
i want to acquire true depth of life,
but what about the material needs,
which the flesh longs for?
i really need you Lord,
i really do.
im already out of breath,
my stamina's running out; i need living source of Life.
it has sustained me in the past,
and i know it will now, too.

im biting my lips as i struggle to stay wide-eyed while the crickets sing.
oh yes i believe my breakthrough will be,
tonight.

2009-05-26T21:51:00.003+08:00

P.S.
i LOVE THIS PICTURE!!!!!!!!!!!!
i aspire to have as many shoes as she does.
seriously.
and the problem is,
once they're bought by me,
they become an art piece,
to be displayed in my small musuem of shoes~

2009-05-26T21:24:00.007+08:00

I MISS YOU ALL SO SO SO MUCH~

was radomly looking thru my pics and found my prom photos...

they made me burst out in laughter and at the same time, they left me feeling nothing but nostalgic.

had lunch at makan place w alicia.

JAP FOOD!

yum yum, but it was still too salty for me =(
treated alicia to green tea ice cream from waffle town ater that.

im dying of stress in poly =(

my quiz results are nothing but rock bottom and yes, i admit, im already feeling so discouraged.

*stuffs myslef w broccoli in attempt to feel better*

i don't know if im gg to sleep today...

tmr's DSS, b.mamangement, and some POA for myself.

dang, and i've to chioong like MAD tmr.

POA remedial's 3hrs worth on thurs.

and then i'll chiong chiong chiong till friday morning.

then fri morning i'll sleep for 3 hrs and shut down during LMS class.

i need super powers.

i really want to go overseas to study.

sg's too suffocating for me.

plus, i don't intend to stay here.

maybe i'll come back when im gg to die of some weird illness.

idk.

change is what i need,

and i know it'll do me good.

2009-05-25T00:17:00.002+08:00

im like bloggiing here when im supposed to do dss???
not sleeping anytime soon tho.
shawn's nagging at me already.
hahahhahh.

lms at amk hub tmr morning.
then when im back, i'll chiong dss unit application.
i'll catch a nap and then continue with the remaining.
tuesday's SEC at blk 72, so it's sch time again.
wednesday's dss project day, followed by dental.
thurs POA remedial, studying time later in sch.
friday's the worst, chiong EVERYTHING.
saturday's kickboxing+gym.
sunday's church and maybe another session at gym, i duno.

im just so so so so packed this week.
i need to be super human.
and i need to set aside time to do quiet time too.
if not i'll have major break downs again.
mum says im acting strange again.
i can't help it.
ive got so much on my mind.
really.

<3char.

2009-05-24T16:10:00.002+08:00

on my 164th post,
im turning away.
i know i won't regret it.
it's been a long while since i've made such a wise decision.

someone said to me that if you happen to feel that your life is worthless,
just think about those people who've given you so much of their love,
and you're bound to feel much better.
i believe so too.
so im moving on,
after so many years of doubts about my feelings.

today's grandma's birthday,
have to go out for an impromptu celebration cos everyone of us got the date wrong.
then i've to face reality again on monday and rush thru so many projects, graded quizes and homework.
who says poly is easy?
maybe it is for others, but it so doesn't apply to mine.

i feel breathless at times,
but im glad to have friends who give me a hand along the way.

praise God.

<3 char.

2009-05-22T23:35:00.003+08:00

i wonder why too.
about the numerous people that pass me by.
should it remain just as it is?
i kept my mouth shut for too long,
that's what the song on the stereo mentioned; i couldnt help but agree with it.
i did have some regrets.
leave it unspoken then.

im so glad i have a family.
i really do.
they're always for me.
i can eat like a pig at home, sleep with my head hanging off the edge of the mattress and paint my finger nails for two hours without anyone at home commenting about my weird behaviours.
i love to eat cheese burgers with caramel sauce from the apple dippers and my latest obsession is mcdonalds happy meal cos it comes with a toy and everything's in mini size, which is highly beneficial for my limited calorie intake.
i know im abit loose in the brain but my family just loves the way i am.
grandma does give me a hug in the morning whenever im almost dozing off the breakfast table and tells me to jiayou for the marathon at school.
it's does melt my heart and certainly reinforces the fact that home's indeed the sweetest.
i've already come to my senses that my family's quite different from the rest but lacking a male figure isn't going to make me less of a human.
in fact, i believe it shapes my character to stand up for what i believe in.

i've got days whereby i dress in the weirdest colours and weeks in which i have a monstrous appetite to munch non-stop on chocolates.
anti-depressants? not so.
it's just how artists work, i guess.
and i somhow believe he does things like this too.

i feel like im losing touch of my past sometimes.
i really do wana reconnect with what i used to have.
perhaps many things in life drift away like maple leaves in authum, and perhaps they'll only return when the season's right.
maybe it's just hard to let go of my comfort zone, my source of my confidence, the icon of my identity.
i think im going mad sometimes.

im going shopping tmr with mummy.
and im so going to do kickboxing seriously after eating 1700 calories today, which consists of 3meals and a tonne of snacks.
diets seriously don't work for me and they make me feel like CRAP.

i love the sereneity of the night.
the dim lights of streetlamps and soft murmurs of insects from nature just around the corner.
violet skies at twilight are my favourite,
it brings lots of memories back.

i wished i could hum a melody, really.
but there just isn't a sound.

i need to find peace in the hustle and bustle.
yes, tomorrow.

2009-05-21T15:25:00.002+08:00

am having a super boring b.management lecture now.
it's one of my fav subjects, BUT it seems otherwise when i attend lectures.
tutorials are somewhat okay with interesting projects coming along the way.

life's really really hectic in poly.
met many other st nicks ppl in BS!!! =D very happy about even though we're in diff modules.

*beginning to nod sleepily already*

tmr's LMS = slacking day.
CQ project coming up =(

yawn yawn yawn.
i need to sleep and start studying.

it's not even4pm yet.
argh. another 1 hr to go.
the old woman goes on NAGGING.

P.S.
i really express my apologies for neglecting my friends amidst my busy schedules.
things are crazy in school and at home, esp, AT HOME.
too private to blog anything abt it.
all i can say is that it's an uphill task trying to adjust to poly way of life and to accomodate an on-giong madness at home.
killing my precious brain cells, that's what i say.

so girls, let's hang out soon yeah??
life's tough i know, so let's see how far our frindship can bring us to =)
im sure we'll make it through,
for a very long time =)

<3char.

2009-05-20T19:54:00.002+08:00

<3 to all in this photo.
fabulous.

really thank the Lord for all that He has done for me.
i've so much going on at home that it's simply too much to mention here.
i'll get pass life with trust in Him for He's faithful and true =)

been talking to mummy a lot lately.
seems like she's getting very lonely.
wished i could do smth for her.
but i know there's a limit to all my efforts.
i do feel more than indignant for her.
i really do.
and that's why i know i've to buck up on my studies already.
i most likely didnt make it into the 2nd round of interview for NPS, and so there's still a strain on our financial situation at home.

sometimes i find myself so money-minded, maybe cos i've seen the grave importance of it at home.
i hate being like this but somehow i can't help it.
i need to believe the God will provide for all my needs even if i don't see it in this very present moment.

meimei's been a big hoo-haa at home.
almost nothing's going right with her.
i believe in redemption.

poly for me's a bit of a mess.
ive been slacking and tests frighten me, even MCQs.
i just want Bplus for every subject.
im gg to chiong next week already.
i'll paste banners everywhere at home to haunt me to start revising.
hopefully they'll work yeah??

i really wana jump into running my own fashion/cosmetics line soon.
i dun wana rich husband, why would i even need one for???
maybe i'll need to meet richer people of similar interest =D
la la la,
im crapping.

sleeping very early today.
freaking tired since last night's marathon.

i dun wana see my POA results.
i might need remedial =(

<3 char.

2009-05-19T12:41:00.003+08:00

i can't believe i missed out on these shoes.
it's exactly the size im wearing, the exact colour that's lacking in my collection...
and IT FREAKING WEDGES!!!!
dang, i need that.
it's a beauty, at abt 120pounds, brand new, sold to someone else on park&cube website.
im seriously sad now.
my heart's probably aching more than my gastritis now.

missed sch today so im gg to chiong DSS, POA and B.Law.
ive got 9 human hours to go and i must make sure i get to sleep by 10pm today.
doctor warned me that being nocturnal's gg to affect my medicine so i've got to learn how to sleep like a human should.
sigh.

im still so indignant about those shoes.
it was love at first sight i tell you.
ask me to choose between shoes and a man and my immediate answer would be SHOES.
i <3 them.
so much till im not willing to sell, wear or touch them with my dirty hands when i clear the boxes of shoes under my table.
ive got in total abt 14pairs of shoes consisting of converse, high heels, platforms and slippers.
it's madness i tell you.
i can hear my mum screaming from 2000miles away whenever i squeal with excitement over shoes.

newest pair i got from charles and keith were a champagne satin heels at $13.
dirt cheap and they had my exact size, plus it was magical 4inch heels =)
makes any leg look dam gorgeous.
so i made some excuse to share it with mummy and she cashed it in.
it's only $13 after all =D
doro, let's hit anchorpoint soon yeah???
then we'll hit ikea to have swiss meatballs.
i'll make sure i'll get well from gastritis by then =D
im sure we'll spend hours there =D
they've got your size for EVERY pair.
dang, size 40 sucks.

oh well, mugging time,
ciao~

<3char.

2009-05-17T23:15:00.003+08:00

talk about self-awareness.
i feel like deleting the first line.

i really hope no one reads this particular post.

it's random,
yes i know.
mummy says im unconventional;
just a nicer way of saying im werid.

sticking out like a sorethumb,
im used to it.
i don't feel sad.
i can deny my inner feelings very well.
just bottle and seal up.

i need a breathing space.
i really do.

maybe it's times like this,
that the Lord steps in.

im trying,
i really am.
and sometimes i wished i could just reverse her order.
be it for better or worse,
yes i hate you dad.
i really really do.

it's more than a decade,
the sight of you in my mirror irks my very being.
my innermost frost comes alive,
suddenly.

oh why oh why i ask,
and there's no reply.

i really really wished i could write this in my diary, and keep it shut.
but maybe i just hate you too much.

u remain annoymous,
where you are.
count it as an expiring luck you have.

im tired.
i need rest.

2009-05-17T21:11:00.007+08:00

went to amk library and then macs to do DSS PBL.
argh.

happy meal toy at macs!
ericia, xingzi, xingli and i ate happy meal!!! XD
i <3 pink teddy bears =D

POOFIE!
random pic to make fun of him.
turning one yr old soon!!!

swiss meatballs eaten at ikea on sunday.
super yummy but only managed to eat 4 cos of my swollen oesophagus.
thanks anitibiotics.
i HATE you.

<3 this contemp art piece at ikea.
$129.
ex ex ex.
BUT i'll be back for it.
ONE DAY.

wanted this bedframe but it couldnt fit my room =(

took this pic along my way to NUS cos i took to the wrong bus stop.
mind you i walked 10km on my wedges.
say cheers to the ultimate way of burning of calories under 33 deg.
it really helped.
hahahha.

searched online and found out that oesophagitis is quite painful.
like DUH, i can hardly eat or breathe noramally.
and it affects only 1% of patients.
THANKS A LOT.
i told you im a mutant didnt i?
so let's hope natural selection takes place so that i can die earlier before i get tortured badly by medication.
argh.

this week's going top be so, so, so, so tiring.
esp when you can only eat mash potatoes and porridge.
sobs.

with no ,3 at all,
char.

2009-05-16T01:05:00.012+08:00

poofie! i <3 him so so so so so so so so much.

i loved him more when he was 6 months old.

gek(model) and me.
ignore my gross face.
she looks gorgeous =D

dots and i! XD

we <3 camwhoring.

hahas, we always end up with one pic that's blurred even on prom!!!!

me acting stupid.
i think im too stressed that's why.

the event.

dots, alicia and i.

me and alicia.

the lightings really yellow.

last shot before dinner at subway at 9 plus.

today was dam tiring.
glad i did what i was supposed to do.
hope everyone had fun.

kickboxing at 9.30am tmr.
and then gym.
argh, and im dead beat.

tmr g to ikea and achorpoint.
mummy wants to buy things for me.
i guess im acting strangely nowadays.
and im bruising all over my legs again.
not seeing the doc since i feel fine and def not having symtoms of cancer or disorder whatsoever.
already on so many pills and the side effects are gross.
i dun want anymore from the doctor.
have to save money too.
it's hard earned $$.
and it's not like my capillaries are bursting by the minute.
can totally imagine how i'll die from dengue when im already bruising when im well.

i never loved sleep so much.
im thankful for all the frinds i have, for accpeting my weird personality and drastic mood swings.
i know my shortcomings, and they aren't easy for ppl to accept.
if they cant then i guess there's no affinity to be friends then =)
true friendships are so, so hard to come by.
i don't want popularity at all,
i just want to be me,
and have my close friends when i need them
if we even have the chance.

<3 char.

2009-05-14T00:15:00.004+08:00

from seaofshoes.

aw man, really <3 this. BUT it's impossible for me to wear since i'll prob die of fatigue after 5km of walking. sigh. im so not blessed with teeny feet that can go the distance on extreme heels.

talking abt HEELS,
Antonio Berardi HEELESS shoes, well, obviously NOT heels, are....
well, actually,
amazing.
maybe it's got to do with physics and that's why girls can balance on such absurd shoes??
whatever the case, i might torture myself with one pair when i strike 4D.
after all, the CHEAPEST pair's like SGD$1200.
talk about the love for shoes.

that's the exact skirt i've been looking for.
it resembles charinne's sch uniform skirt BUT im so not wearing it.
she's altered it anyway, so i doubt it'll fit me.
she's blessed with a proportionate figure whereas im like some mutant suffering from skin and food allergies, weeny dolphin-like teeth and not forgetting fast weight gains and a super heavy bone mass ,which was indicated from a body analysis i went last week.
my optimum weight is like abt 8kg more than the usual?
see, what a big diff.
argh, genes, oh genes, what can i say?
so much for hoping to drop a dress size.
oh well.
life goes on, doesn't it?

from today onwards i shan't join netball anymore.
ive applied for NP entrepreneurship club and gg to join jap tsubasa club tmr.
it's COSPLAY.
yay.
if it's all abt bling bling, uh huh!
then we're speaking the right language here =)

i feel so bimbotic.
hahha.

sch's been pretty good these days and TB30's bonding well.
we've got insider jokes already, and all we need is a tutorial grp outing and MORE photos on facebk to complete the whole class bonding thingy~

wonder who still read my blog besides alicia??
hmm, i know sandra does, dotsy does, then uh, i think this page's alien to public already.
haahhahahhaha.
was thinking abt since my sister's blog always has to many tags tho she posts like what, thrice a MONTH???
don't know if it has to do with co-ed sec sch?
or does it just reflect my sadly weeny social circle?
i believe the latter's the reason.
you see,
i tend to live in my own world.
of endless shoes, Zara, fashion, money, happiness, blah and blah and blah.

mummy says i should get an award for being such a good daydreamer.
but hey, dreams do come true right?
praying hard, im sure i'll achieve that.
someday, perhaps.

<3 char.

P.S. i thank God for CLEO today =D

2009-05-12T23:16:00.003+08:00

gosh,
i shouldn't even be blogging now.
just woke up from my sleep at 10pm.
great, now i've to chiong till abt 4 plus in the morning.
but i still get extra 3 hours sleep before sch starts =)

thank god for lessons at 11am.
and MCQ b.law qns.
i can't imagine myself surviving tmr.

*gasp for air*

but at least im not going for CCA this week since im joining smth else.
mummy's complaining abt my weird sleeping patterns.
but what can i do? im freaking nocturnal and studying in the afternoon makes me dam drowsy.
i can hardly see the words on the paper.

but i'll try.
tonight,
or today morning i mean??

<3 char.

2009-05-11T19:22:00.003+08:00

listening to: behind enemy lines - demi lovato
<3 this song.

stupid blogspot.
it didnt post what i wrote just now so im re-typing all over again.
argh.

no mood to blog already.
super pissed with blogger.com
it wasn't even saved as a draft yet.

off to chiong macro econs and the last bit of POA.
b.law's the worst.
but im thankful for MCQs.
the inventor of this ought to be greatly thanked.
i believe i scored for Os cos of it too.
elimination makes questions so much easier to handle.
plus not forgetting, it makes tests more brain-friendly =)

can't wait can't wait for friday.
i even bought my eyeshadow brush today.
i can't believe myself.
im broke and still spending.~

<3 char.

2009-05-11T00:47:00.004+08:00

today, i prefer to speak in riddles.
cos it's complicated.

i'll leave it as it is.
maybe.
perhaps.
there's so much to do,
so the girl believes that many things fade with time.
it's a mess she's in,
she catches a breather,
and moves on with whatever's she's left.
she turns and tosses late at night,
with her playlist singing on and on.
too many thoughts occupy the vessels of her mind,
she tries to sleep,
oh yes,
she really tries to forget - just to fulfil her moment of rest.
she sees a reflection in the mirror,
is it me?
she asks, but no one answers.
looking on,
time runs out,
and she's off to another topsy turvy,crazy world.
so sometimes she wonders,
if, if,
there could be a solution or answer out there.
the girl's eyes caught a glimpse of a seemingly ordinary book,
somehow believing something of genuine wisdom was there.
so open up and read, my child,
that's what her mother said;
the flashbacks passed as she stared.

she thought for a while,
and then smiled,
for what she needed was always there.

so speaking in circles,
it was fun -
no one understands,
but He knows.

<3 char.

P.S. alicia! jyjy for ur fashion piece ya??! XD
not sure if i can make it in time to do the makeup cos sch ends at 5 pm for me =(
but i'll request to leave early if i can.
love u all out there!
so looking forward to friday!! =D

2009-05-09T23:31:00.004+08:00

yawns, really tired now. =/

im so dead, i havent started on homework yet. tmr will chiong at 6am.

oh yes I WILL.

i wana eyecandy in sch =(

&, that's NOT despo of a girl.

it's just outta pure entertainment that's all.

dun get the wrong idea peeps =D

2009-05-08T23:20:00.008+08:00

was so bored for the first part of LMS that i surfed SO MANY fashion sites!
sheeshh, i think im mad over stockings, blazers and long slouchy tees.

i like white blazers tho i know they'll never look gd one me.
fashion eye candies are gd for the mind =)

love these two combinations for sch.

just that sg's too humid to wear these stuff and i need those nice boots and oxford flats.

slouchy tees too.

my current fashion inspiration for now.

esp their gothic makeup and SCARVES.

not forgetting their cocktail dresses and dainty heels <3 <3

this reminds me of my mum.

she used to have smth like that in her wardrobe b4...

BUT SHE DONATED THEM.

i wana kill myself for my late maturity in fashion.

dang, i was such a toot person then. =/

i like neck ribbons too~

very couture style kind of statement.

as usual, the blazer's what caught my eye.

i've got everything she's wearing cept her denim shorts.

argh.

let me lose weight first.

then the shorts size will be more comforting XD

yupps, tmr's gyma dn kickboxing in the morning followed by mother's day dinner at Soup Kitchen at causeway pt.

wonder if i can even get anything done.

i haven't started for nuts.

nvm, IM NOCTURNAL.

sunday's spa session with mummy!!

yayness.

totally looking forward to that.

my shoulders are stills aching like hell.

so how ya ppl doing??

keep me updated on facebk and my tagboard ya??

<3 , char.

2009-05-07T20:07:00.002+08:00

wanted to post the pics i'd taken w my webcam during b.management lecture, but i duno why the pics turned out so TINY.

anyways, i've had a veryvery long day...
had NPS interview today...
really scary.
i'd 3 judges to shoot me questions.
the two ladies were nice and the guy...well, he was somewhat pleasant to some extent.
it was esp nerve wrecking when they kept writing down every detail i said.
synchronised somemore can!!
even the change of pen to pencil...^^"

let's just hope i get into second round...

my shoulders are aching like hell.
from netball training and last week's gym.
=(
and of cos, today's DSS BOOK.
dam, dss spoils MY DAY.
argh.

la la la la.
i seriously think this blog's dying but nvm!
i shall just continue posting since afterall, it's a space for me to rant at =D

can't believe i survived 3 weeks in poly.
amazing.

2009-05-05T19:56:00.002+08:00

slept for abt 2.5hours yestd....
yawns.
almost died during b.law lecture today....

now ive to chiong DSS and b.law tutorial qn...
i'll do it at 11pm once i get another 1.5hours of rest later.

really encouraged by all the tracks in kari jobe's album. =)
i know i didnt chance on her songs on youtube by any accident.

it's stressful at sch but im glad i've got friendly tutorial mates with me =D
and a super good study partner erica who does her homework so punctually!~

im just so, so exhausted now.
i need rest.

maybe more.
for a longer time =)

2009-05-04T22:41:00.001+08:00

yawns.
just woke up from my 2hr afternoon nap =(
started chiong-ing HW at 8pm...
done with POA but there's still MacEcons.
argh.
think i'll stay up till 3am...

i wana stop being nocturnal =/

2009-05-03T23:47:00.004+08:00

im rejoicing in the Lord.
am really thankful for everything i have.
i'll survive the 3rd week in NP!!
He's more than enough for me =)

saw this pic on deviantart and it really struck me.
daunted on me that life is just like a collection of moments caught on camera.
good or bad, they're just a memory to be kept in our hearts =)
sincerely hope my friends out there are leading fulfiling lives ya?
all the best to alicia for the fashion competition! =D
i know your talent won't go to waste dear =)

i really really really really like her hairdo.
i need long hair =(

HER SHOES!!!!
i've been searching for those shoes for SO LONG.
just can't seem to find them anywhere =(
oh well, i'll save up for something else then.

oh, it's past midnight.
hello, monday blues.

2009-05-02T23:28:00.002+08:00

busy busy busy busy.
yups, that's what everyone's experiencing now ya??

i realised that for this week, i've only sent out 7 smses.
yeah, say WOW.
this is how boring my life can get.

the tagboard's dying.
perhaps that isn't so bad after all =)
at the very least, i know that my site's got some privacy yeah?

facing b.management now.
gg to chiong tonight.
till 3 am i guess.
plan to finish POA if i can.

im feeling a little lost nowadays.
i don't know where i belong.
mummy says to take comfort in God.
but it's sometimes just so difficult to overcome our human weakness.
okay, maybe im weird that's why.

haha, it's great to chat with Gets again.
miss those convos with her.

again, how time passes.~

sometimes i just don't like sleeping.
i don't know why.
it's prob cos i take afternoon naps.
that's bad i know.
but im nocturnal.
=/

i realised that i can't live without having to turn on my laptop.
no wonder the electricity bill's skyrocketing.

let's just leave it hanging here.
=)

2009-05-02T00:47:00.002+08:00

listening to : You're for Me by Kari Jobe

yes im reminded.
oh yes im reminded of Your Grace.

im nothing short of a human.
im letting my emotions run as they should,
not bothering about the judgememts i may have to face.

i'd really want to be so close,
so close to you,
my Lord.

sometimes i fail,
especially when things just go too right for me;
i tend to forget Your faithfulness.

perhaps it's only when i get broken,
then i'll get a chance to taste the sweetness of Your love.

i know You're for me.
You'll never forsake me in my weakness.

im truly, truly blessed,
i believe.

2009-05-01T20:03:00.004+08:00

bought a new bible, kari jobe's new album and a cookie monster hp sock today ! XD
super happy~
the bible's really pretty!
listening to kari jobe's album now.
it's really worth the buy.
i don't mind eating less to get her album.
worship is spiritual food anyway =)

POOFIE!
his eyes are always gives such a doeful look.

shaking his head.

acting cute.
hahaha.

it's really a joy to watch baby poofie grow up.
he's hitting a year old on 20 june so rmb to wish him a happy doggy birthday~
i believe i can truly understand why pet owners love their pets so much.
it's like they're part of your family.
it bonds people together as well.

i've got to burn midnight oil today.
slept in the afternoon for abt 3.5 hours so i've to chiong two of my modules tonight.
aw man, my poor eyes.

2009-04-30T22:49:00.002+08:00

credits to parkandcube.

oh, i wana start ripping my old denims too.
love the edgy look.
and i like tearing things apart!~
kay, i know im a saddist at times. =/

sch's been going well for this week.
still coming to terms with the new sch semester and all the work etc.
really glad to have friends to hand out after tutorials and lectures =D
i NEED TO STUDY TMR.
cos i skipped lectures today with woon ngiap.
haha.
aw man, i better buck up for next week.
already for blaw, mr ng's asking me questions that i can't really answer.
dam, i duno why he keeps picking me.
he pronounces my name CORRECTLY at least.
it's not CHARissa, like CHARcoal.
gosh,
these people should have phonics lessons.

ooh, today i got my nokia 5130 from a trade in of my faulty viewty.
had to top up $50 but it was okay. still lower then other shops.
so gona switch to singtel after im done w m1.

listening to stuck w each other now =D
i loved the shoppaholic movie!~

credits to seaofshoes.

one.
i love her figure.
two.
im so in love with her skirt.
three.
i want my hair at her length too.
four.
i love her super fair skin. im turning yellow-skinned.gonna get medicine this week from the doctor's cos it might be food allergic again.
dammit.
five.
i wana have a fashion blog too.
but obviously i cant, since i cant even fulfil the first three loves.
sigh.

life's a roller coaster ride.
it really is.
from joining OCs to CCA tryouts, to tutorial groups, etc etc etc.
never ending heart attacks.
plus, i can't imagine class presentations.

i didnt sign up for BA envoys.
OC mates have been asking me, but well, i guess i wasnt really asked to and perhaps my lack of passion for it means i should seek my interest in other CCAs?
im in a mesw now.
i really am.

i duno what's gona happen to my delayed stack of undone homework, projects, blah blah blah.
i know i can never compare my stress to those champions at JCs. =/
they're super humans!
can imagine what they'd go through everyday.

kays, it's getting wordy.
SORRY.
i blabber a lot.
u should see my diary.
it's beyond what u call an ENTRY.
ooh well.

2009-04-29T21:34:00.000+08:00

I'll Move On- By Olivia Ong

This road that I'm taking twists and turns
My life my chance turning dreams into reality
Down this path faced with so many things
Sometimes I feel like giving up and turn away

Can't seem to go on
And I've been thru' this before
Now where am I? Where do I stand?
A little lost here
But I'll remember
All those times you've bought me through
I'd be a fool to give up cos' the goal is near

I'll move on I'll go on
Lord I will take your hand
And you will guide me along
Survive thru' this storm
So I say come what may
I'll hold on to my hope
Yes I will walk down this road
And my passion drive will lead me on

Here I am
Once again caught in the rain
Looking back I've come so far and I want to carry on
Take a step a little time it's alright
Even through this rain
I want to smile again

Don't hold back now
And I've been thru' this before
Now where am I? Where do I stand?
A little lost here
But I'll remember
All those times you've bought me thru'
I can feel the sun shining down on me

Here I am Here I am
Lord I will take your hand
And you will guide me along
Survive thru' this storm
So I say come what may
I'll hold on to my hope
Yes I will walk down this road
And my passion drive will lead me on

this really spoke to me.

2009-04-27T20:40:00.002+08:00

well, today was a total slack day cos sch was from 9am till 12 noon.
lecture only lasted an hour cos mr tan has the ability to breeze thru POA slides.
ahahhahahaha.
im dead. ive got macro econs revision to do later as well as homework.
tmr's gg to be exciting!! XD
at least it wun be boring.

wed's trial selection for netball and im feeling quite anxious abt it.
oh whatever.
im thinking too much again.

bought W350 today.
don't ask me why on earth i bought that 90s phone for.
i just like the blasting mp3 player that's all.
i'll pray hard that i don't break it.

alicia and i are turning into anti socials recently...
i dun wana even touch my phone if i can.
to the extent that i don't exactly wana reply smses.
not that i dislike anyone, it's just a sudden urge to be alone and enjoy the inner serenity i suppose.

meimei's have a blast with her audition dance game while poofie's barking like some hungry pup to get her attention.

wordy post again i know.

oh, i realised i bought loads of stuff today:
laptop sleeve
DSS book
black pumps
new phone which im still unsure of.
711 slurpee

eh yeah, i think that's abt it....

my new phone looks very fragile. =(

2009-04-26T23:36:00.003+08:00

listening to : I'm Singing by Kari Jobe

am really touched by this song.
it feels absolutely awesome to praise God in your own time set aside to be with Him, alone.
i guess maybe that's why i've got very few social gatherings and not being exactly being popular helps me to stay focused on the Lord.
as a human, i believe we'll always crave for more than we possess so being contented's totally out of the question.
i want to learn to smile and start the day by greeting my Father with a gd morning prayer for the day and then "bounce" to school energetically and enthusiastically.
haha, i wana take delight in all that's been given to me.
good or bad i know it's for a purpose =)

school's been going on just fine for me =)
understood some topics but i feel that there's still much more revision and work to do before i can go off and slack.
im always not on task and still in a holiday mood.
i totally lost my study stamina.
but im sure i'll get it back.
i just need to enjoy the learning process and have faith that God will help me in my stressful moments.
sounds easy but it really isnt.
breaking down's a common affair for me at home.
i can yell at every living thing at home from spiders to ants to poofie to mummy, u name it i've screamed at it before.
my outlet of stress is scary when it reaches the brim.
but as long as it keeps me saint, im fine =)

thinking back, the past week has been really eventful.
from unknown lecture halls to strangers in a super huge campus, it sure was scary at first.
but im adjusting well thanks to the many blessings of companions i have at school =)

for now, i just wana stay focused on what i have to do.
i tend to lose myself amidst my busy schedule.

this wed's netball training and i truly hope that i'll enjoy the company of like-minded girls who've joined it too =)
be it competitive or recreational, i'll leave the decision to God and just enjoy myself.

the most important lesson i've learnt this month is to believe in what's unseen and be joyful because im leading a life with God right beside me.
and, He's reading my blog too =)

2009-04-24T20:16:00.004+08:00

credits to seaofshoes.

i want shoes like that for poly =(

i love that wraper over dress!

it can be a slouchy long cardi too! XD

i wana grow up, so that i can wear all these nice stuff w/o being said that im being too matured for my age.

i like grey classics.

i don't know what on earth's happening but i just seem to like it.

AND i wana join yellowwhipcream's korean shoe order!! =(

it's quite cheap, $35 in total for a pair of super nice chunky black high heels.

they won't cause blisters cos the cuttings quite good.

argh.

but im broke.

shall just make do every weekend with my existing 8 pairs of high heels and 4 miserable pairs of worn out flats.

went to causeway pt today to get stationery and files.

on my way back i spotted a shop that was having mad sales.

and so i bought 7 pairs of earstuds, one ring, one handmade floral box to put those earstuds and a pair of translucent stockings to go with my charles and keith heels.

total was at $7...

which was SO CHEAP. =D

plus those earstuds arent tiny at all =D

i took those super striking ones XD

ive diverted my attention from earrings to earstuds cos im pinning my hair up and it'll be more convenient with them around during netball training sessions =)

yes, im vain, but i really like sparkling things like a small chirpy sparrow. =D

Life management skills was okay today.

the teacher was so-so but he seems to like to do soliloquy(forgot how to spell) quite abit.

well nvm, his students are more than willing to plug in our lappies and chat on msn, explore facebook and check email while he preaches the methods on how to really lead a fulfilling life.

i liked the part abt not comparing urself w others and just being urself.

it's true that many of us get so caught up with people that we even forget who we really are.

and most of the time, we want to be who we're SUPPOSED to be.

that sucks.

i tried it and it just took a toll on my happiness.

that's a great cost esp when things arent quite going your way.

tmr's mugging day for me.

2009-04-23T19:00:00.002+08:00

firstly, i really really like her hair.
taken from theseams.bs.
=(
maybe i'll look something close to this is 4 years' time.
that's a freaking long time =(
i cant help but feel sorry for the state of my hair now.

i seem to like pointy shoes nowadays tho i know they hurt a hell lot.
macroecons mr lee touched on the topic of why female species wear high heels.
and acc to his observation, he drew a conclusion that it actully APPEALS to the males cos heels alleviate a lady's height and thus a better figure!
tada!
i really laughed my guts out during mr lee's lecture.
he's gotta be the BEST lecturer around.
everyone feels that way too, i believe.

so far, sch's going pretty good for me.
ive got loads of work to be done during the weekends and i'll be revising all the chapters to ensure they get thru my braincells and hope that the info can be retained too.
i can't afford to slacken esp in my first year.
if i flunk for first year, i cant imagine the rest.
the difficulties ought to to inc over the semesters, so ive gotta mug hard and home.

amazingly, poofie's growing LONGER by the day.
i mean it,
he's TALL now and his former chubby legs have gone from trotters to somewhat similar to a hare's.
=(
i still prefer his chubby state.
so much more huggable and squeeshable.
yes, im obssessed with carrying him and traumatising him now and then.
call that sacarstic entertainment.
hahah.

yup, life's been okay and am gradually adjusting to the life ive to lead for another 3 years to come.
i kinda like how things go here so i guess i should be much more happier?
just realised that econs's v similar to human geog and POA's not in my league of liking at all.
dammit.
POA =(
i duno how im gg to survive those droning lectures.
the aircon's like not even working??
ppl get grouchy too~

kays, time to play w poofie!
love all you people out there!

2009-04-21T22:09:00.003+08:00

i don't feel like uploading any pics today.
maybe cos i don't think it's possible to find any photo to express my multitude of feelings now.
perhaps im PMS-ing?
i highly doubt so tho.

went out w dots, alicia and fran today.
missed the ben and jerry's free ice cream but im fine with it since im on diet, plus, the bag of chips last night certainly didnt help at all.
i don't know why but it seems like im starting to lose connection with my friends.
im not blaming anyone, it's just how things are right?
we no longer have funny interesting topics to scream abt anymore nor do we have common oohs and ahhs to get excited over.
this is reality.
i tired to ignore it but i should've expected it earlier.
everyone's making a great effort for a get together but the awkward silence and "huh feelings" i get are so.....
it's getting more frequent.
still, im grateful to have st nicks pals who i can hang out with.

i know i've got to have my circle of friends in a POLYtechnic.
POLY's emphasized to show the HUGENESS of the place, and as such, it can be both an easy or a difficult task to make friends and form ur own clique of people.
im still very thankful for my lecture mates who've reserved seats for me before lecture starts =)
i guess all we need's more outings?

there're many things that're distracting me from the main thing i should do now: focus on God and commit everything i need into prayer.
trusting in things i do not see's simply tough and it sucks at some point in time.
it's like jumping off from a cliff and not knowing if you'll survive.
it's a complicated thing im gg thru but im sure i'll get pass it.
recovering from culture shock, im sure i'll have my fair share of fun when the right time comes.

i'll have a morning jog tmr.
it'll help to cheer me up =)

2009-04-20T19:11:00.002+08:00

freedom.
that's what poly's really like.
i mean i only have up to abt 4hours of lecture per day??
plus even if i've got tutorials and lectures in a day, it's still very....relaxed.
the campus is super huge but im glad ive met some new friends already.
i'll prob sleep during tmr's B-law lecture.
i almost did during my POA today.
terms were a lil confusing but i guess i'll manage with some revision later.
after all, it's just notes that i'll have to get thru. =)
there's one million and one software updates for my laptop.
and it's totally hanging the whole system.
=(

i like stockings and long shirts.
they remind me of the countryside for some reason.
life's kinda hectic here...

went to sign up for netball and divers club today...
definitely having second thought abt divers club since ive to earn the license myself...
plus my mu doesn't have the financial means to keep sending me for diving lessons and diving trips.
even my aunt has offered to pay for my fees if i don't get the scholarship.
im intending to decline the offer, cos i don't want to be too obliged yeah?
im not too smart anyway, so better not take the risk.

looking through other ccas now..planning on joining a cultural club?? =D
seems quite fun =D

i sincerely thank the Lord for granting me new friends today =)

2009-04-18T21:23:00.002+08:00

we're outside douby ghaut! XD

doro was eating mr bean ice cream and soon after i had my share too cos the sweltering heat was just too much to bear =(

it totally ruined my makeup.

argh.

met alicia too!

alicia, upload the photo yeah??

then i can put it here too XD

went to fash bash and bought throwovers, shirts, etc.

then went to bugis street and bought a nice pair of shorts for $10 =)

really happy to find the exact cutting and colour that fits me. =D

im really picky at times, plus im not that slim to look fab in normal shorts cuttings.

bad genes is what i call it cos even after losing 3kg, im still wearing the same pants/skirt size.

absurd but it's true.

maybe i shouldn't be a girl.

then i need not worry abt these stuff. =(

dots and i went into the handicap toilet to try on our clothes XD

budden thr was this dam irritating person who kept clicking the open button outside.

like HELLO, cant people use public toilets in peace?

plus, YOU'RE NOT HANDICAPPED.

we're just using the facils for a while cos aunties were lingering all round the female toilet.

and they'll most prob stare at teen girls like us who're just trying to have fun w our new purchases.

so is THERE ANY THING WRONG W IT UH?

hmph.

but we still managed to camwhore.

guess i'll only do this when ive got a companions with me. =)

really tired now.

but am looking forward to tmr cos im gg to collect my new specs and contacts!

my eyesight is in a horrit state.

my jaw and canines hurt now.

it's a nagging dull pain.

OUCH.

i dun like having dolphin teeth.

neither do i wana have big jaws.

i just wana be balanced and normal, which is quite impossible now.

i wana do smth abt my nose.

sigh.

2009-04-17T21:40:00.002+08:00

went for bowling with ghetto four at marina sq today!
had quite a lot of fun there but my bowling skills are really beyond pathetic.
i think i'll just stick to archery and art for now yeeah? =/

relaly happy that my lap top's up and running!
apparently it's the motherboard that got spolit, which acc to NEC is a v rare prob.
see how lucky i can get??
i should buy 4D.

tmr's a shopping outing w alicia and dorothy!
super looking forward to it.
plus, tmr's appointment with handsome orthodontist! XD (jkjkjkjk)
hahs, i sound like a perv =/

it's a blush and harsh affair,
and i know it's just a fling.
wished that it never happened,
but i guess some matters always
end up the opposite way.
since erasing the thoughts' impractical,
i'll just keep them somewhere at the back of my mind.
is it all to me who's just like that?
guess the scars are a constant reminder of things that aren't exactly over.
or perhaps they are,
it's just the nagging gut feel that's all.
im sure i'll be over you,
very very soon.
or at least i have to believe so.

2009-04-16T11:02:00.003+08:00

i love beanie-like caps XD
shall def get one once my hair hits shoulder length.
and stockings!!!
they're a great blessing to people like me who gets blisters 24/7 in heels and flats.
yes im that pathetic.
guardian has a loyal plaster customer =)
i like disney ones XD

OMGGGGGGGGG~
i love her DIY-ed thick fishnet stockings!!
i wanted to make them myself but found out that the denier(whatever u spell it as) is a lil too thick...
it'll be so difficult to cut.
plus, my leggings are all more than $20 =(
i dun wana take such a risk as yet...

BUT.
ive got EVERYTHING she's wearing!! XD
black crop jacket, denim skirt, white long blouse...
and i can grab a black vintage bag from granny!!
she promised she'll pass bags to me.
she's got over 30 branded ones kay.
=D

maybe i wun need a new schbag after all =D

im still suffering from a post food allergy breakout and my sudden growth spurt isnt helping at all.
im patiently waiting for 3 of my registered parcels to arrive =(
i want them so badly.
esp my ohsofickle black blazer~
my prized possession!
got it ONE MINUTE before seller said ALL PENDING.
phew.
online shopping can be as good as fighting a war at times.
with affordable prices, well-known cult brands and stylish designs, it's quite difficult to resist not buying.
unless you're broke like me now.
but im happily broke cos i fulfilled all my needs for clothes on my wanted list.
and for a total of abt $250 spent, it was quite a good deal.
i find myself getting an outfit at a MUCH MUCH faster rate now.
seriously, don't underestimate the importance of clothes cos m,roe than half the time they're the things that gives me an extra boost of confidence.
ladies, im sure u know what i mean =D
shoes&bags too, but just as many say watches/shoes/etcetc makes the man, i believe CLOTHES make the lady XD
hahs, im crapping again.

not too sure if joycelene'll pick up the phone later....
we're supposed to meet to get our textbks from NP but we can always do it tmr rights?? XD
tmr morning should be okay since ghetto four's metting at 1pm at marina.
argh. life's hectic now.

2009-04-14T13:23:00.002+08:00

i love this album!!!
downloaded most of her songs.
she really does the best angsty kind of songs.
her screaming while singing's the best!
mighht even buy the album if i have the extra cash XD

my 6 bottles of perfume oils just arrived from malaysia today.
aqua di gio, lovely, 212 sexy, midnight poison, very irresistable, juicy couture and lolita lempicka.
it's more than 6 cos grandma took one aqua di gio & my lolita lempicka.
i wanted one aqua di gio so badly.
i think it beats chanel no. 5 inside out.
i don't know why i like it so much.
and seriously, it'll take me at least 6 months to finish 6 glass bottles of perfume oils.
i like to put them on cotton balls cos they really make my wardrobe smell great!~
plus they're cheap, $4.50 per bottle !!~

anyways, ive got 2 more parcels coming in and im SO GALD im getting them at such an amazing rate.
then im left w abt $60 to spend on clothes and another $40 on my bag(mummy's contribution).
im pretty much prepared for poly.
just that i havent figured out what text books to buy.
anyone want to go get them with me?? =(
i think i'll get lost.
i don't even know what im supposed to get ='(

yay, it's near 2pm which means my cheque would be cleared by then!
time for bank transfers and cash withdrawals!
though most of the cash won't be in my pocket.
sigh.
i contribute a lot to the many things which are mine and SHARED.
see how unfair life is.
maybe i shouldnt work?

2009-04-12T17:06:00.004+08:00

cleared my wardrobe at 2am last night and this was what happened.
charinne's been drowned in a total of 3 piles of clothes consisting of more than 30 pieces of clothing.
and i never knew where they came from =/

these are the clothes that im tossing out.
abt 13 pieces or so....

POOFIE!!
i startled him while he was in dreamland! *oopsy...*

he has to pose for this os i told him he'd get 5 treats for me.
see how this dog loves food so much??
he should thank all his ancestors for the chance to be brought home by my sis and me!!

went out with mummy today to buy my new specs!
got one bling bling one in green and went for eye test too.
from 275/275 to...
......
.....
.....
.....
....
...
375/350!!!!!
OMG!!!!!!
that's after 5 months mind you.
my mumwas shocked can.
plus i need to go back to change my contact lenses that were from US, which means ive to wait another week.
argh.

the worse thing is that im paying for my specs. *heartache*
$109....
sigh~ im truly broke.
plus i still need to buy my sch bag !! =(
life is sad without enough money~

2009-04-11T11:26:00.002+08:00

OMG.
there was this good-looking UPS guy who came to my doorstep at 11am.
RIGHT WHEN I WAS IN MY MESSY RED HAIR AND CLOTHES.
so embaressing can!
somemore had to sign stuff and record my name.
phew.
thank god i'll never meet the same guy again.
so mah loo. =/

2009-04-10T19:53:00.007+08:00

ghetto rap 4!

taken at the CC at the end of the day =D

had so much fun with these people.

hope we'll be in the same class XD

that reminds me, ive to check my time table!~

went out with dots to j8 today to watch shoppaholic.

the movie was great and i can definitely relate to all the excitement and satisfaction of shopping mentioned it.

it's true that besides diamonds, shopping's our next best friend in every season.

retail therapy works every time.

my eyebags are horrible.

maybe cos i had such a long chat with the already-tired-out alicia (sorry!) till abt 2.30am last night =p

ive so much to update you girls on! =(

really don't know when's the next time we can meet up and start crapping over some yummy ice cream which will cost us over a thousand calories.

but who care, it's occasions like these that we have every valid reason to sin with food and have fun rights? XD

as im muching on my boccolies now, i suddenly remembered that today's Good Friday.

so once again, im full of gratitude for all that i have.

take today for example, for $55 i bought so many things that were on sale : jacket, 2 belts, 2 pairs of fake lashes, makeup brush, hairclip, lash clipper, movie, top coat for nails, chips and some kind of collagen water from Pokka.

see, there was just so much for me to buy today with such an amt of money.

ive basically got all the stuff that i need.

just feeling very happy now =D

2009-04-08T20:06:00.004+08:00

Ghetto Rap 4 took this at Np's Makan Place.
was supposed to be one of our food tasks, but it was fun anyway =D
that's the whole table of our lunch! XD

five girls: myslef, amelia, joycelene, madeline & vanessa.

the other two were absent.

joycelene and me!

hahas, shamelessly taken at makan place.

our seniors were already making fun of us by smiling extremely widely at us from the opp table.

they're really a fun bunch of people to hang out with.

today's orientation games was quite fun, 'cept that the heat was a lil annoying.

got full marks for ALL stations with loads of loud cheering and stuff like that.

it was just enjoyable.

was a great way to help me take my mind off some things for the time being.

NP's really fun to hang out and i sincerely hope that i'd make more friends as time goes by.

looking at the seniors, they do seem to have quite an experience at Np, so im just patiently waiting for my turn i guess.

thought of what CCA i should join and thought of 3 of them.

shall go apply for all 3.

i want to keep myself busy.

as longa s it's meaningful to me, im sure time there will pass very fast and studying might become a joy too.

it's my goal to make studying my motivation to strive for more cos that's precisely why i chose the unconventional route of going to NP in the first place.

tmr's the last day so there'll be many interesting finale performances to catch.

yays!

let's hope for more pictures tmr =)

2009-04-06T21:16:00.013+08:00

went back to st nicks to get grad cert today!!
wore art club shirt!! XD
went to guardian to buy hair dye.
my hair's dark maroon now~
can't really capture it under the cam light cos it's night time now =/

went to do my nails too!
took abt 45mins.
total bill was $27.
quite okay but i doubt i'll go back cos it's crowded and aunties keep looking at my weird nails.

met yanyi outside st nicks by coincidence!!! XD
took this in the sch library!

pls take a look at these ancient books.
ahhahs, they remind me of many memories.

ORANGE BOWL!!

had ice tea and extra soup kindly given by uncle pang ah choy!! =D

total was $2.60.

WHR TO FIND SUCH GOOD AND CHEAP FOOD??

taken at the signature st nicks mirrors.~

yanyi's twin!

taken at lvl 5 toilets!!

i hate the mirrors for being so low.

are we that short??

im sure many of us notice that the batches after us are getting SMALLER & SHORTER.

are their mothers feeding them well???

my half clone.~

kinda failed in this shot cos i was the one holding the camera.

wrote this on 4unity's classroom whiteboard!!! XDXD

link bridge!!

sigh, this sight really mad emy day.

the faint fragrance of orange bowl from the canteen and the sight of blooming frangipanies were awesome.

love the lighting for this shot.

it's calming aint it?

goodness, i got a shock when i saw this.

this ancient board was designed by yours truly last year and it's still here.

EVERY SINGLE DETAIL.

can't they make it cleaner and nicer looking??

it takes less than $20 you know.

im sure student council can afford it.

furthermore it's the SCHOOL ANNOUCEMENT BOARD.

shouldn't it be more presentable??

oh well, im glad ive graduated or i'll have to clear this mess again.

76/268 bus stop!!

i always remember the times when we had to run like crazy women to catch the dam 76 bus, esp after cca when it's the peak hour.

so there i was strolling in my art shirt, leggings and flats in such a relaxed mood with utterly no sense of stress or whatsoever.

it's times like this that i truly thank god that i've graduated and chose to get into poly.

tmr's orientation day at NP.

and im the only one from st nicks going there.

dammit.

im gg to be so nervous when i get there.

i havent even figured out now to get to ngee ann from clementi station.

shall go check it out now.

red shirt and shorts tmr.

cross your finger and toes for me tmr ya?

love all of you out there!

shall hang out more with all of you when our schedule allows us to =)